Looking back and 2008 here I come...

Not too sure why but i'm feeling very positive at the moment. I am not contented with what i have achieved in life and it is definitely way off my target but i truely believe that i'm blessed and i'm doing very well. I'm not a millionaire but that's still on the cards and i'll get there one day and well these are the reasons why i think i should thank god for:

Asupportive family that stands behind me
An absolutely gorgeous fiance that i know i'll be spending the rest of my life with
Fantastic friends who's always there to hear me whinge
Getting the opportunity to work with such fantastic workmates and it just makes life so much easier
It only takes me 5mins in the morn to put on my makeup and i'll look presentable
Having the opportunity and brains to run a business after work
Knowing how to manage my finances
I don't own any nail polish, mascara, eye pencil and eye shadow but i still look good
I don't exercise and don't have the healthiest lifestyle but i'm not fat

So well, in summary, i feel that i should be glad on how i'm travelling in life. It's not the rosiest and easiest path but isn't that what makes life interesting as well? And with 2008 just round the corner, i'm just so filled with energy and courage knowing that it is going to be so much bigger and better and this should be it:

We would have sold our property and be sitting with a fair chunk of cash that we can use for investment (gotta watch that and make the right decisions but well, i suppose invest in good companies and remember that its a long term investment and not let the short term volatility get to me!

We have a rough idea of where we'll be renting and what we will be renting so I cant wait to move all of mum and dad's furniture out of storage and have a place of our own. We won't be sharing with anyone so it'll be our own place..not a house but home. I know its just a rental property but well, with the property market stagnant or going down, we're better of renting anyway. Plus we don't know how long we'll be staying here for as we're looking to moving interstate or to another country so we'll see. Buying or owning a property is definitely not part of our plan.

Business will be getting bigger and better! I've got expansion plans all ready to roll and i know i'll succeed. Things have been fantastic over the last 2-3 months and i might be able to go part time at work so i won't be as tired and i'll have more time to expand the business. I can't wait! So many plans, so many dreams that needs to be executed!!

I'll finish my studies soon and will finally be able to get my license to give financial advice legally. Not too sure if i want to do that as if i have a choice in life, it'll still be going full time into my business but we'll see.

So thank you for a fantastic 2007 and 2008, here i come filled with dreams and hopes!!!

Elizabeth: The golden age

watched elizabeth: the golden age last night. I have to say it isn't as bad as what I heard and I actually quite enjoy it.

I was dreading going to the movies last night. I have so much to do at home. I need to clean the house, pack all my stock, deal with my business and on top of that, I actually have a full time job! So life's been a juggling act and with christmas round the corner, it's even worst! So well, we had these free tickets and thought we might as well go watch a movie. I was tired, lots on my mind, lack of sleep and some days i feel as though i have to allocate time for my fiance as well so that i'm not neglecting him. And it felt like that last night. So well, wasn't too excited about going to the movies, didn't hear many good reviews about elizabeth and i suppose i went in all negative. However, i walked out a totally different woman. I feel the power, i feel the confidence and i feel that it gave me strength to put up with everything that's happening in my crazy world. And that life after all that isn't really all that bad.

idiots work at Australia Post..

I'm piss off with Australia Post..was very close to biting that stupid post office lady's head off! My partner went there yesterday and we are meant to collect this parcel but it wasn't there. So i emailed the seller and asked him and he confirmed that he has sent it last week. So well, i had to call Australia Post to ask where the parcel is and the post office finally confirmed and said that they have a new sorting guy and didn't sort it properly but it's been sitting there ready for collection.

So well, this post office isn't round the corner but a 10mins drive away..so we had to go out of our way to go to this post office to collect the parcel again and when i was there, the lady said..oh there must have been a mistake. There's no parcel for your collection. I had to tell her that well, I was told the parcel is waiting for collection this morning so it has to be there..went back to the room for another few minutes and she finally came out with a parcel and her excuse was..oh its the wrong name. I wish i could scream at her..it doesn't matter who the parcel is addressed to! It is sent to my PO Box so I am here to collect it! Just because you guys have a bad filing system for parcel, it is not my problem? And if you are at fault and not looking properly, don't find a stupid excuse to give cos you'll only look like an idiot.

This lady should thank god that i don't have the time and that post office is not the one nearest to me cos if it is, i will be dropping my parcels off every day to make her life difficult because at the end of the day, I AM THE CUSTOMER! idiots....don't mess around with the wrong person!

caffeine didn't work!!!

I'm glad i managed to survive today cos the caffeine didn't work and I was so tired and yawning the whole day! Didn't help that things are really slow these days leading up to christmas and i didn't have much to do. ekk....it was so difficult....i hope i don't have many of these days..might need a few more shots of caffeine and that's not healthy..i'm trying to stick to 1 coffee a day!!

WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP!

Kevin Rudd - the new prime minister....

So the polls have been correct all these while...that kevin rudd is the new PM. I'm glad that he won cos he seems to be in touched with the people of Australia. He understands, he listens, he has the energy and wants to make Australia a better and stronger country. He gave a very good speech on saturday night and by Sunday morning, he's already giving his 2nd speech and has spoken to George Bush, Gordon Brown etc etc. I admire his energy and you can tell how motivated he is.

It is true that John Howard has helped reduce unemployment rates and the Australian economy has never been better. However, is that John Howard's contribution or is Australia just the lucky recipient of China's booming economy? He seems to be very focussed on the economy of Australia but many issues such as the problems within the Aboriginal communities, climate changes, health system and education system seems to be ignored. And if the economy is doing so well, why is the great Austalian dream of owning a house so difficult for people in their 20s-30s to own their own house?

John Howard has made enormous contributions but maybe because the economy is doing so well that we can afford to have a change of government and even if it is a mistake, the price to pay isn't as great. And looking at Kevin Rudd, I believe we have made the right choice. Many issues won't be resolved overnight but he has gained our trust that he will resolve it asap.

So congratulations kevin rudd, we have placed our faith in you...it's time you show us what you are capable of.

Omigod..its been a month...

Time flies...i've been thinking of writing a post in here for a while but never managed to do so. So a quick update of my life...work work work...business is getting busier and busier by the day...employed someone I trust to help me out and it's been fantastic! it has definitely opened more avenues for me! Christmas is just round the corner and i've been working real hard to make as much as I can before the retail season's over and i can take a breather from christmas to mid-jan. Things have been going really well and the idea of going part time at work so that i can deal with what i really love to do is creeping back into my head..at the end of the day, what do i have to lose? We'll see...

It's election time this Saturday...I can't wait to find out who's Australia's next prime minister. I have lots of views on the whole thing but well, never mind...we'll find out on Saturday and we'll know. Hopefully, Australia can make the right choice and put the right guy there for the job :)

Dreams...

Dreams...i reckon thats how i stay alive. To have dreams and trying to achieve those dreams. I find it impossible to live without direction and without goals. I don't understand how people can just live day by day, living off government payouts and sit around and do nothing. It'll be fun for a month of so not to work and not have to stress about anything but that's more of taking a break.

My dream today...to win the $30mil oz lotto...or at least my dream up till 630pm...i know it sounds sad..and i know money won't give you everything in life but well, i'm pretty sure it will make me a very happy girl at least for the next few years :)

grr.....

if looks could kill...i would have killed someone today...

that person is testing my patience...he better stay away from me....or else...its going to get real ugly.

wish i can win lotto...$3mil is the minimum for every week's lotto...i can do with that..i can do with $1mil as well...

grr....

Optus sucks...don't ever go there...

Either there are more and more idiots working these days or they are all in their early 20s with a very bad attitude who don't seem to care anymore. I was looking at changing my mobile phone provider and since optus has provided a service that I can't complaint, i thought I'll give them a chance and let them offer me whatever deal they can give me instead of jumping on the next cheapest bandwagon. (not too sure if i'm the only customer out there anymore!!!)

So anyway, I was asked to speak to a retention manager. Funny how i have to pay 22cents to call and speak to them when they are trying to retain my business? Spoke to someone in sales who is the rudest person ever who said -

'If you want to switch providers, you can just walk through their door and sign up there'

She has no idea that optus even have a retention department or that a retention manager exists and she's in sales! Either she has resigned and trying to piss every single customer off or optus is that desperate to even employ someone without customer service experience who don't know how to listen. Spent another 22cents to call the complaints line and they recorded my complaint and got me a retention manager who can't even match other providers' deal. So optus has a retention department who is trying to retain customers and yet, don't have to the power to do anything to retain customers. They can't even match other provider's deal, let alone beat them!

Pathetic.....

Busy week,...

This has been a very busy week...its been difficult and I'm tired emotionally and physically. Thank god its a long weekend so I can get a good rest. I'm already feeling recharged and hopefully things can get back to normal soon.

My partner's grandmother died on Thursday morning. His parents were frantically trying to get flights out and managed to fly out on Monday night and was there in time. His brother and sister was having issues with passports and by the time they got there, they had to remove her from the ventilator and let her go. Well at least they are there for the funeral.

It's never an easy time when someone in the family dies but it is just weird how it doesn't affect my partner and his siblings. They seem to think that this trip is more like an holiday and my partner and his other sister who stayed back was just glad to get rid of all of them! Maybe because they have only met her once in their lives and aren't very close to any of their relatives so it doesn't bother them as much?

I passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I finally got my assignment back! I passed!!! Yahoo!!!! These idiots emailed me when they received my assignment but couldn't email me to tell me that i've passed! The letter was dated 19th Sept and it only arrived today, 26th Sept!! Grr..i've been worried about it all these time and the letter was just making its way over that's all! it's not a difficult course but it's because it's easy which is why I feel even more pressured knowing that I have to pass and if i fail, i might as well dig a hole and bury myself!

So well, I'm contemplating whether I should enrol for the other 3 units and finish all my assignments at one shot and then sit for the exams altogether since I have till christmas to sit for the exams. Or, I should do it unit by unit and finish one before attempting the next one.

:)

Alright...i've snapped out of my so-called 'depression' and decided that sulking wouldn't change things.

So well, guess life is filled with ups and downs and life goes on. At the end of the day, I have a fantastic family and mum and dad are very supportive and easy to talk to. My fiance is everything a woman can ask for (For example, he spent his day off work packing up, cleaning the house and folding clothes!!!). Maybe life isn't all that I wish it can be but at the end of the day, it's not all that bad. There's people who's worst out there and maybe sometimes, I just have to step back and compare myself to the less fortunate than people who are more fortunate that I am. Plus at the end of the day, many people talk about their successes but how many actually share their failures?

i'm depressed....

I declare myself depressed...i'm sick..i'm sick of work, sick of life, sick of all the nonsense in general. I'm bored at work. I've got absolutely nothing to do and it is driving me crazy.

Someone's off sick and I have to look after her clients for her. And she has a ridiculous boss. I have never really liked him but am very glad that i don't have much to do with him on a daily basis. He's been driving me nuts these few days. Made me look like an idiot twice and had to do all these research for him for nothing. All he had to do was to look at file notes that he left 1- 2 weeks ago, he'll know exactly what happened? Working with idiots will kill you.

Besides that, I guess i'm just not happy with my life. I'm not happy with the situation I'm in and I'm sick and tired of being optimistic about everything.

At the end of the day, I know i'm lucky and I should be happy. I know i'm not having PMS and I know this feeling will pass. Oh well, i'll get out of this depression soon..give it a couple of days.

Caffeine Addiction...

It's scary how addicted I am to coffee and how I simply can't function without it! I never used to drink coffee at all, maybe once a week when I meet up with friends and that's about it. It started when I was trying to juggle way too many things with work, business etc etc. I start sleeping lesser and since we have an espresso machine at work, I started off with a single shot every morning. Days when i have only around 4 hours of sleep, i increased my dosage to double shot. With my new job, they don't have an espresso machine at work so I tried surviving without coffee but I will be yawning all day and can't seem to focus!

This weekend reminded me of how addicted I am to coffee. I tried surviving without it but gave up at 4pm on Sunday. I felt oblivious to the world and seem to be just floating around and have no interest in anything but laze on the couch and walking around aimlessly. Half an hour after my mocha kicked up, i'm back with a vengence! Managed to accomplish so much more in the last hour than the whole day!

scary...i need my coffee....i promise I won't push you away ever again..i'll have you faithfully everyday....

typical female issue....

Did something that I wasn't too sure if i should have done it. Its a typical female thing. I emailed my ex asking how he is. Its always a little weird because I remember his birthday every single year since its a day before mine. Well it's hard to forget isn't it!! I didn't contact him last year or the year before but this year, its been bugging me. I guess I'm just curious as to how he's doing and if he's happy. Curiousity might kill the cat but well, i managed to put it off for the past week but since things have slowed down at work, I've decided to take the plunge and send him an email. I haven't had a reply yet but knowing him, he's a lawyer and will be in court, with a client or he's surprised to get my email and want to have a think of his reply and email me later today ( and then forget to email me altogether!!).

Somedays I just don't understand my facsination with him. We haven't been together for a long time. I can't even remember my last ex-bf's birthday but I remembered a lot of things that we did together. We nearly got married but I was just way too young. Somedays i wonder if we ended up getting married, how would married life be. I have a feeling we would have divorced by now. Many women would love it, he's a lawyer with his own firm, money, car everything but I guess he's a nice guy to hang out with but I just don't think I trust him as a husband. He's a typical virgo and we're both very practical and it would have been a marriage without any romance and sparks would just die. He's 38 this year and he's still single. He's been very unlucky in love and when we last met 2 years ago, he told me how he really loved this girl. He liked her for a while and it was one of those stories where they've been through so much to be together and you'll think they will live happliy ever after. He was ready to have a future with her but she stabbed him in the back. It was a very rough patch for him, not just to go through a break up but to have someone you love wholeheartedly betray you.

So well, he isn't a bf that I would recommend to anyone since he didn't really treat me all that well. But I guess part of me feel sorry for him and just want to know how he's doing.

proud of myself :)

Did something that I'm proud of today. I wrote an article for a magazine about retirement investment planning. Its only half a page but sometimes, its a lot harder getting all that information to squeeze in as compared to writing a long article!

It took me a while to come up with the title..it's been so long since I did something like this. Then again, I've never been a morning person so my flair of writing only started closer to lunchtime. Managed to finish the article just after lunch and so hopefully it'll be accepted and will go really well :)

MIA...missing in action

Time flies..i've been telling myself to write something in my blog all week but I just can't seem to find the time. I've got lots of time at work to blog but once I get home, thats when my real day really starts and I can't find anytime to blog at all!

So well, what happened over the past week. I've withdrew all my money out of my trading account and have decided to take a break from trading indices for the time being. I've finally handed in my assignment and have received confirmation that it has been received at their end and will let me know the results in 2 weeks and I can book my test in if I pass my assignment. I've been thinking whether I should pay for the remaining units and start doing the assignments before leaving it all till christmas when i'm really busy with my online sales. Decisions decisions...

My birthday was on 2nd September. Virgos are very practical and I am no exception. I do not need flowers or presents. We went to a restaurant that we haven't been there for a while and they have the best garlic prawns in town!! Really enjoyed my meal there so thats good enough for me! It was father's day as well so I had to go over to my in-law's place for dinner which wasn't all too bad but thats about it. Nothing fancy but a nice and beautiful day :)

Finally..my assignment's done

Yahoo!!! In between ebay business, trading the FTSE and everything else in life, I finally managed to finish my assignment! I forced myself to sit down and finish it at 1am! Printed it out and well, just ready for me to seal the envelope and post it off..muah ha ha ha...

Next would be to sit the exam which I heard is pretty easy..and that's it.

So well, I have to finish 3 more units and I promised myself to finish it before xmas and I WILL..so let's see how that goes...fingers crossed!

i lied...back into trading indices :p

Well I've been back into trading indices but this time, i'm into the FTSE and been making enough out of it so i'm happy to just master FTSE and I guess thats all I need isn't it? Still staying away from DOW since its so volatile and my weak heart can't handle the excitement that comes with it.

I'm glad that I've been very rationale and use my head instead of my heart when trading. Today I wasn't very sure where the FTSE was heading and so I open and closed my position within 2mins and made my money and that's it. Still made a few hundred within that 2 mins and its keeping me happy knowing that I am not taking any risk that i'm not comfortable with. I'm hoping that this goes on and I might have to start thinking about how much tax I have to pay since profits might be taxed at 46.5% by Mr John Howard...grr..Don't see why I should surrender close to half my profits to the government!!!!

So well, since i've been spending so much time trading the FTSE, I've neglected my ebay business so no new listings at all and my assignment is still incomplete. I've got another 3 sections to go so I'll get down to it on Saturday since there's no trading involve over the weekend!

been checking out CFDs

I've opened a new CFD account last week. CFD means contract for difference. You trade in most financial instruments from forex to indices to shares. As for shares, you only need 5-10% deposit for the amount you purchased and well, close it as and when you are ready to. As for binary indices, you can buy those that close at different times and you basically bet on whether the market's going up or down.

Today's my first day..been watching the ASX, FTSE and then DOW at night. I regret trading the DOW!!! Its just so volatile and I basically just spent the night staring at my computer screen with the prices refreshing. Its just so stressful and well..i have to say tonight is the first and last night i'm trading indices. I guess in a way, investment should be long term and not determined within a few hours. Felt as though I was gambling more than investing.

So thats it...NO MORE BINARY INDICES. Gambling and investing is such a fine line but well, i should focus on investing than gambling.

Another week has passed....

This week has been a roller coaster ride! Time went by so quickly! I've been so busy watching the stock market. A$ has fallen way too much for my liking! Now its gonna cost a fair bit more when I order my stock in..not happy!!! Been thinking of going short on one of the bank stock and I didn't do it and missed my chance..and now, I don't dare to do it anymore. Just not too sure where the market's heading now.

Most people from work are heading to phuket for a conference so I'm hoping that I'll have nice and quiet time for the next few days. ekk...

Time's flying by way too quick for my liking!

I'm scared...weeks are just passing by just like that. I seem to have so many things to do but there's never enough time. I know its not a time management issue but more of taking on way too much...priorities in my life now..Besides having to work, deal with business when I get home, i've been trying to study/do my assignment but there's never time. And on top of that, go out for drinks with friends.

Maybe cos my birthday's 3 weeks away, I feel as though I'm getting another year older and i'm officially moving into late 20s and I've achieved nothing. Or well, maybe nothing in my own terms. I've always wanted to start my own business but with $50-100K sitting in my bank account, i don't dare to take that risk. And i'm not getting younger and the older I get, there's more responsibilities....is that dream just going to vanish into thin air just like that? I hope not...ekk....

i'm so proud of myself!

I made such a yummy meal today that my sister reckon I can sell it for $25 a plate at the italian restaurant! I've never really liked cooking but somehow, for survival sake, i have to cook as eating out everyday is just way too expensive. So well, went to the supermarket today and saw a marinara mix on special. Thought i'll buy it and make pasta with it. The marinara mix had salmon, squid rings and mussels in it. On the way back..came up with a few ideas and i started cooking once i got back! and the final decision was -

Linguine tossed in olive oil and italian herbs with white wine marinara mix

Sounds good eh! But definitely a meal that anyone can make! Well basically, heated the pan up and cooked the marinara mix and poured some white wine in it. Cooked some linguine at the same time and once its done, toss it with olive oil and italian herbs.

was having it half way before i realised that i forgot to add some mushroom in...grr...oh well..i'll remember it the next time since i'll be cooking this at least once a fortnight!

We want to stay but you're making it hard...

Baby boomers or basically, my parents, have the mentality that people should be loyal and stay with the company for a long period of time. I agree that employees shouldn't job-hop too much and it doesn't look good on your resume and I would prefer to stay with a company for a few years before considering any better opportunities. However, I feel that my mindset has changed. Friends who have jobhopped constantly within the past few years are earning more. Simply because, when you stay with a company, you only get 1 pay review a year. If you job hop within 6 months of the pay review, you will get a payrise instead of having to wait a full year and with every new job, its an increase in salary. So compared to someone who is loyal and stay with the same company, you are about $10K worst off within a 2-3 years and well, $10K isn't a huge sum but is a significant figure, especially when you are trying to get that home loan to buy a dream house or car.

So bottomline, instead of blaming employees, why not blame the company for not being able to come up with salary that will match their competitors constantly instead of waiting for a yearly review and then at board meetings, wonder why there's a high turnover? There's major resource company thats willing to do that and they are happy to give you $5K on top of other competitor's pay just to keep their employees because they rather do that as it cost more to retrain someone. Why can't all companies have that mentality as well? Maybe that will lower a company's turnover? With inflation and rising cost of living, you can't blame employees for wanting more.

Celebrities sufferring from ADD!

I reckon Paris Hilton and gang all suffer from ADD as they are such attention seeker. When best friend paris got sentenced to jail, that seems to be the new 'IN' thing for hollywood and lindsay lohan and nicole richie are following suit and heading to jail as well.

Many other celebrities have commented that lindsay lohan is a very talented girl who just needs to get her act together. Its really saddening to see someone with talents throwing it all away, all for drugs and alcohol. As for paris hilton and nicole richie, they have no talents and i feel that they are just out there everyday to create news for the tabloids and paparazzi. And they make money out of being famous..in a sad and pathetic way. Oh well, guess they are rich and they don't even need to work so it doesnt really matter. But if you're that rich, why would you want to have your privacy invaded. Is fame worth it? Would anyone consider that as fame? I reckon they should be classed as notorious than being famous!

Money is the root of all evil

Don't think anyone will disagree with my title. Families have been torn apart, people have destroyed their own life and years of friendship gone down the drain, all because of money. Isn't it strange how much we value this commodity, so much so that nothing else seems to matter?

I have to admit that money brings happiness but its not everything. Money can solve a lot of problems but not all problems. Money is important but is not the most important in life.

Freaky..i knew it was going to happen..

For days, I had a feeling that I was going to lose one of my earrings. In fact, it came close one day when I dropped it in my bathtub but managed to grab it. It happened again today. I was combing my hair before heading off to work and my comb managed to dislodge my earring and it fell into the sink and down the pipe. ekk...


Thank god my fiance managed to take the pipe apart and retrieve it. How scary is that? Women's 6th sense, coincidence or fate?

I'm letting it go :)

I was reading my magazine last night and found an article that I can relate to and I believe there's a lot of people out there who will as well! Its about how women love to keep everything and refuse to throw anything out!!! I am 100% guilty! I keep stuff from years ago, it can be just a sample pack of a facial mask to pins that I know I won't use but well, thought I'll keep it for a rainy day.

Therefore, I'm on a mission today. I shall start packing my bathroom and throw as much as I can out. Boxes that I don't need, the numerous cosmetic pouches that I got for free when I buy more than $150 in products, etc etc etc.

So fingers crossed, I'll get to clean up and throw what I haven't use for the last 6months out. If I didn't need it in the last 6 months, I won't be using it and therefore, i don't need it.

Wonder why life is so complicated

My gf is 28 years old, single and haven't had a bf for a while. Another friend is in her 30s and well, have a fling here and there and don't have a man who's in her life or well, constantly in her life anyway. People would think that they would be envious of my life where I have a fiance, brains (or some brains anyway!) and capabilities.

In fact, they have no idea that I am envious of them in certain ways to. I'm envious that they are on their own. They don't have to deal with a lot of nonsense that I am facing and will be facing in future. They can do whatever they want without having to worry about anything. Go wherever they like and don't have to answer to anyone or think twice about their actions. My life on the other hand, is like a juggling act. Work's been pretty busy this week, on top of that, I have to deal with fiance, fiance's parents, his sister, MY sister, my sister's bf and the list goes on and on. I am meant to finish as much as I can with my business and then start studying as I have to finish an assignment and sit for my exams. There's no dateline but I want to get down to doing it. Its hard enough now and I can't imagine if we're going to have kids. When will I get a timeout. Just time on my own to do what i want. I miss just lying in bed reading my book till wee hours of the morning, I miss reading my magazines, I miss lying at the beach on my own with my sunnies and relaxing.

So well, to all the women out there who wish they are in a relationship or have a man in their life, its not always rosy and filled with love and cuddles. Mine is but that doesn't make up the bulk of the relationship and well, enjoy your freedom and time on your own while you can. While you are out having that martini and glancing around the room to check out a man on weekends, I am sitting at a dining table with my in-laws dreading every minute and wondering how I could have utilised my time a lot better.

hungry... :(

We've been so used to eating so many meals a day in Singapore and stuffing ourselves silly that we're really hungry these days now that we are trying to adjust back to having just our normal meals/portion!!! I was working till 2am this morning and tummy was growling and I had to appease it by having a few biscuits. Went to bed and this morning, I had to grab a muffin on the way to work and I was already hungry even before lunchtime! I used to survive not having breakfast and make it to lunchtime without much food!!!

I need to stop eating and start going to the gym..mummy said i put on weight and should watch my figure or i'll look like a rolly polly in my wedding dress...grr..

back...and working hard

I'm finally back from Singapore. This trip is so short and time flew passed way too quick! All I could remember was all the food, eating every 2hours, feeling bloated and can't walk another step after all the food and shopping!! Surprisingly, we didn't buy much this time. I wished I bought more stuff and I know if i have another day there, I would have bought a fair bit more but well, like what I tell myself. I can survive today without it, I can survive another day without it and therefore it is not a necessity!!

Got off the flight at 9pm last night and was back at work at 830 this morning. And I have so much work to do and everyone seems to be stressing that I stayed back 1 1/2hours to finish off some work. I'm surprised myself as you hardly find anyone who will work overtime for no major reason!Well at least my boss knows since he left earlier than me and i'll take the time off when things slow down again.

Have a huge parcel of goods to deal with as well after work...damn...7 days away...and i'm back..working harder than before!!! Oh well, making up for lost time i suppose

Concert for Diana

Well because of the time difference, I was up till an ungodly hour of 3am before I went to bed. 4 hours of sleep and off to work again! Wasn't the smartest thing to do but I don't regret staying up to watch such a fantastic concert! Well done!!

I hope everyone who watched it feels the same as I do. Times have changed over the last 10 years and I guess, if only Princess Diana was around. The last 10 years have been filled with lots of hatred. Terrorism, hatred for muslims etc etc. People seem to only care for themselves and we no longer have an icon to remind us everyday of how fortunate we are and that there are many people out there who deserves our care and compassion.

Hopefully this concert has reminded us to care for one another and to show love and compassion for people, the way Princess Diana did.

sugar...chocs...cakes...desserts..

I'm never a chocolate fan. I love my desserts and cakes but I don't go all out to buy them and might only have a slice every fortnight or so. However, I have to been thinking of them all day today!!! It might be cos I'm so bored at work..i have absolutely nothing to do..close to taking the spray and wipe my desk!!! I even made sure i stared at the same piece of paper to look as though i'm reading it when in fact, i'm just spacing out and dozing off!!!!

I hope they give me more work to do..i don't wanna eat any of those stuff..i'm trying to cut down on my food intake so that i can feast in singapore so i need to eat less now..ekk..

8 more days to go..

And i'll be in SINGAPORE!!! I'm really excited about this trip! My friend recommended his hairstylist to us so my fiance will be getting his haircut and i'll be getting a haircut and rebonding my hair. His hairstylist was one of the young stylist of the year so i can't wait to see how the hair salon is. Wonder if I can get my manicure and pedicure at the same place since rebonding takes 3-4 hours! I don't normally pamper myself like that so i'm really excited!

I've organised what to do for the first couple of days and where to go and it just seems little too short but it'll be fun.

Cant wait!!

why....can i just kill them all?

Yes..i have problems with my fiance's younger sister this time. My sister is renting a room from her and she's being a pain in the ass. We would want to move out but because my sister only has till nov before she finishes her honours, we're trying not to move until she gets more information and decides if she's going to do her PhD. It's a rationale vs emotional decision.

She decides to increase the rent, wants 4 weeks bond money etc etc and its absolutely ridiculous. Not too sure how they are brought up or what kind of family frens or people she hangs out with but I just feel that she is being absolutely pathetic. She wants $1K in bond money because she's worried that my sister won't pay her rent? And now that when we managed to negotiate and reduce it to $500, she says that rent will have to be paid on time and if it isn't, she will have to increase the bond money. Seriously, is this how poor people work? That they like to cover their own ass with all these terms and conditions because they need some form of insurance?

Told my mum today..there's 5 types of portfolio for my investment fund..high growth, growth, balanced,moderate and defensive. However, if my fiance's family has money to invest (if they have any! poor people!), they will have to create a new profile..called..CHICKENS! Because they are scared and worried about every god damn thing in this world so they can invest in the CHICKEN portfolio. 100% in money market and earn 5% interest..dickheads...

I need to learn the art of forgiveness...i can..and i will..but his family...in a class of their own where forgive and forget just can't seem to exist.

absolutely ridiculous!

I've just finished watching a programme on MTV channel - Celebrities wedding. I'm just amazed at the way Americans or well, the way rich people spend their money. I can understand that everyone would love to pamper themselves but..this is absolutely ridiculous.

(1) This guy from Blink 182 gave out yoyos as gifts for his wedding. Not just your 50cents yoyo..its a $100-150 yoyo from tiffany! hmm..
(2) A celebrity paid $4K for a 7 tier wedding cake. Its expensive because there's swarowksi crystals as decoration. Is there a need for crystals on the cake? Don't people just eat the cake anyway?
(3) Donald Trump had a fruit basket on his gift registy. Not just any fruit basket..this one cost $8500
(4) Another celebrity had a ice-cream scoop on her list as well..a $200 ice-cream scoop from tiffanys. Might want to tell haagan daaz that their ice-cream just don't taste the same unless they use that $200 ice-cream scoop from tiffanys. haha..seriously???

There's so many people in this world thats starving, living in poverty etc etc. Money can definitely be spent in a lot better ways than that. Maybe cos I don't live in that world, i wouldn't understand that having a $200 tiffany ice-cream scoop is a necessity. All i hope is that these people, are people who can afford to donate to better causes in life and they will share their wealth with the millions of unfortunate out there.

out of action...down and out..

I caught the flu bug from work. I don't mind getting sick but the worst part is, starting a new job when you're that sick! I was fine..until Sunday when I just collapsed. I came down with a sore throat, nasty cough and high fever. All within 18hours before I start my new job. I was scared. I found every medicine that is edible at home and ate them. I took vitamins, supplements, panadol, anything and everything! I finally made it to work! I am amazed at how much determination can help someone. Went to work for 2 days and survived by coughing, going to the bathroom every hour, drank lots of water. Unfortunately, my fever came back on Tuesday night and I was still feverish on Wednesday morning and well, had to call in sick.

The best part of it all..was how nice people were at my new work place. They actually asked me if i want to go home or if i don't feel well, just go home early. There's nothing urgent anyway! My boss's son is having a flu as well and was sick and bedridden for 3 days so he's amazed that I'll cope with just a day away. Somedays i thank my lucky star. I have been very fortunate so far to work with nice people.

Someone knock some sense into my cousin!!!!

This cousin of mine..needs Dr Phil. She needs someone to knock some sense into her!

She's a very smart girl who excelled in school. She's only 2 years older than me and has always topped her class, went to uni, did really well and was recruited into a top MNC into their graduate program. Not too sure if I should blame or or her husband but things went down from there. Had a fantastic career and they wanted to send her to denmark but she resigned. She decided to get married and stay at home and have kids. She has been pregnant for the bulk of the last few years. Married at 24, pregnant within 3 months after her wedding and she's pregnant again a few months after having her 1st baby. She didn't give her body enough time to recover and had major complications and the baby died and she was in ICU etc etc. Ever since then, she has been staying at home looking after the kids. She's 29 with only 1 year working experience. We were very close when we're young but ever since we started growing up, she's into church and I reckon to her, I belong to Club 666 with all my drinking and other nonsense!

Now, she has decided to join the workforce again and I believe she must be finding it hard to get a job. Hence, she has been successful in...a commission based..insurance/investment sales position.She's smart..but she has low EQ. She can't communicate with people properly and sales is wrong for her. And now, she has pestered every single relative she has to invest with her so that she can earn her commission. Everyone's been complaining from my aunts to my cousins.

I wish I can sit her down and tell her to get a proper job. Sales isn't for everyone and definitely not for her. And stop using the same method she use to pester people to go to church for this job. Going to church and investing is totally different! Similar example is..someone can be top student at maths but not for geography or literature. Its different and for her own good, stop pursuing this job. She's only wasting her time and energy on something that she won't succeed in. I might be good with money but picasso will flip in his grave if he sees my art or karl lagerfield will pull his hair out if he sees my dress design!

Can someone counsel this lost child? She goes to church every sunday and cell group etc etc. So can god do her a favour and point her in the right direction? Please?

Chloe Dao - what happened and why did you do it..

I know i'm a little behind time but I can't help if foxtel showed something from March 06 only now. The show is Project Runway. Its a reality show featuring a bunch of designers who make their own clothing according to the week's theme and one of them will get voted out every week based on the judges' decision. So I watched the finale of Project Runway today. Chloe Dao won and her dresses were AMAZING. Unfortunately, she died right after the show..on the same day she won the competition. I googled it and seems as though she committed suicide.

Such a pity. She's not only a designer but a businesswoman. I believe there was an article that stated that Neiman Marcus was going to employ her as a designer or sell her label. She had a future that people who die for but she committed suicide. No one knows what happened and maybe no one will know.

Someone told me that reality tv stars have a high suicide rate. A lot of them get depressed after the show etc etc. I think reality show is getting to a stage where it is ridiculous the things producers do just to keep the ratings up and there is a line between ratings and morality.

First day of Winter..

It's officially winter..and it is cold. The heater is my new best fren and I leave it on for hours everyday. Minimum of 5 degrees today and I can't leave home without my winter trench coat that keeps me warm. Its my fav coat and I don't think I'll ever survive without it.

Its snowing in Melbourne as well and I remembered how we wanted to book the flights and go to melbourne for a skiing session with my fiance's relatives and cousins. Glad we didn't book it since it won't fit in very well with the new job and my coming trip to Singapore in July. Oh well, guess we just have to remember that life isn't all about having fun sometimes!

Dean Geyer

The new pretty boy who can sing :)

Not too sure if i'll be succesful in adding his photos so visit his website http://www.deangeyer.net/

I reckon he's hot and definitely the model material but I thought he was a little smug when I saw his interview last year.

Wentworth Miller and McHottie are still cutie though..its a tough decision..

Life after resigning is...FANTASTIC

In Australia, employers don't payout your sick leave when you resign. Hence, a lot of previous employees who have left take lots of sick days after they resign. I'm trying not to burn the bridge but I have to admit that I just simply can't be bothered! I worked but not as hard and things that use to bother me, don't bother me anymore. I'll go to the kitchen and grab a cup of water every hour, walk around the floor and had lots of 5min chats. Sent lots of emails and even rang a few places and followup on my own personal stuff.

My manager asked me today 'Are you sure you want to leave?' I thank god for giving me the strength to be able to lie and say ' Its a tough decision but I guess there's no turning back now' when what I had in mind was 'Are you serious? I was hoping to give only 1 week notice instead of 2!'

7 days more to go...I cant wait to start my new job..but i'm scared at the same time..I'm scared of a new place, a new life and the unknown. Scary but exciting at the same time. I'm worried that I won't be able to pass my DFP even though I know I will and EVERYONE know I will. Its just so scary that life doesn't really go on if you don't pass that exam. It's like the end of the road and you can forget about advancing. And just hearing everyone saying 'You're smart, you won't have any problems passing' that stresses me out even more!

think...think...think

Was watching CNBC and it made me depress. They had a feature on 2 startup companies. First was 2 women who started the hunt for vegetarian marshmellow. Alright...NO ONE will think that veg marshmellow will make you rich! 2nd guy, decided to make his own massive bean bag and because so many people liked it, he decide to start a company selling it etc etc and well, he's making $2million a year just selling beanbags!!

Think..think...think...i have to come up with something..always had lots of ideas..where are they now! I knew I should have written all of them down!!!

Sorrento Restaurant in Northbridge

Unless I'm invited, I will never step into this restaurant again. It started off as a very nice experience. Fantastic service, good food and yummy dessert. It all went down when the owner came over and said 'that group of people are waiting for your table' and left. Well excuse me? I am having a meal and I am paying every single cent for it. We've only been at the restaurant for about an hour and almost done with dessert. It was a full meal with entre, mains and dessert and I don't think we are hogging the table. Just because the restaurant is full and you have people who want to dine there, YOU DONT CHASE OTHER CUSTOMERS OUT JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE ALMOST DONE!!!! Another waiter came and clear the plates and even dropped of the bill!! WE DIDN'T ASK FOR THE BILL!! They OVERCHARGED US FOR AN ITEM too! Well they made their mistake and gave us something that we didn't ask for and WE HAVE TO PAY FOR IT????

Food's good but towards the end, service is horrendous and I WILL NEVER RECOMMEND ANYONE TO THIS RESTAURANT!!! If you really have to go, go at 8pm so that by the time you're done, there won't be any customers so no one will harass you and try and chase you out of the restaurant. And mind you, it's not a cheap restaurant as well!!

in a world of my own!

Somedays, I'm in a world of my own and I basically switch off. I'm oblivious to the rest of the world and dont allow anyone in. This normally happen in the morning before I had my coffee. Well I didn't get my cup of coffee today and I spaced out at the checkout counter. The checkout chick said hi to me, I totally ignored her, ignored what my fiance said to me and well just stand there and space out!

Didn't realise what I did until my fiance asked me what i'm thinking of because it was strange how i totally ignored someone. I actually had no idea that she said hi and even what my fiance said after that. Felt really bad after that. Someone actually tried to be friendly and say hi and I just ignored her. Oh well...but hmm...isn't it scary that I'm in a world of my own and oblivious to the world. I'm starting to believe now...that coffee is an essential part of my life. I'm addicted..and I can't function properly without it!

the end....

Had my performance review with my manager, did very well and let her know what my concerns are and what I want from the company. This has been something weighing very heavily on my mind for the past few weeks and it feels like its time. The last time the company promised me something, it didn't happen. I told her that once bitten twice shy. I don't know if I have the courage to believe that I will be rewarded for what I have contributed to the company. There's a lack of knowledge at this point in time and I have that to my advantage and after I've imparted all my knowledge, I'm pretty much useless isn't it?

Anyway, went for an interview and I was surprised that I got the job offer within 2 hours. The salary wasn't what I'm expecting but this is a company that is willing to send me on financial planning courses, pay for it and train me to be a full fledge financial planner. They are promising me a future..something that my company can't.

So I guess thats it for me...i've met frens that i will keep for life and I'll miss them. I thank the company for teaching me how corporate life is and grow from a naive and trustworthy person to someone who is mature and understand the ins and outs of business. I'm upset and I wish I don't have to leave but I know this will be good for me.

Thank you...and THE END.....

just when i thought it couldn't get worst...

It did got worst...what happenened brought a few laughter and definitely a smile to many fren's face and brighten up their day but I just want to crawl into a hole.

So well..i've sent my resume to a recruiter, went for an interview and they have decided to 'market' me to a few potential employers. Found a fantastic opportunity and emailed my resume to the director there. Unfortunately, THE EMPLOYER IS MY CURRENT COMPANY!! THEY EMAILED MY RESUME BACK TO MY DIRECTOR!! Her reply to the recruiter was -

Thank you for forwarding this candidate's resume. She is definitely a very suitable candidate but unfortunately, she is working for us at the moment.

So after the drama in the meeting, they had to rub it in and emailed my resume to my director. Thanks guys...~!#$%%$#@#! I've never swore so much in my life. Again, I have to go speak to her and do some damage control.

Please let me swear just one last time..

YOU MOTHERFUCKERS! ISN'T IT COMMON SENSE THAT AS A RECRUITER, YOU DONT EMAIL YOUR CANDIDATE'S RESUME BACK TO THEIR OWN EMPLOYER/COMPANY??? NOT EVERYONE CAN WALK TO THEIR OWN DIRECTOR AND HAVE A 5MIN CHAT!!

Had to stay professional on the phone when they told me what happened..so well...got it out of my system now. bloody d*ckheads..you better get me a high paying job soon as compensation..

i lost it..and i hate myself for doing what i did

I did something that i regretted today. Had to do some damage control after that but I am still feeling bad. Wasn't feeling very well before a meeting and I tried to get out of it but was forced to go. Felt like throwing up and was feeling sick and having an hour of meeting isn't the best. The meeting was a get together for everyone to whinge to the director and towards the end of the hour, i just snapped. I went off and said things i shouldn't have. It wouldn't have been so bad if we werent force to get out of the meeting room but we had to as it was booked for something else so everything was left dangling. Had a chat with my director and manager after that and well i guess damage control was successful.

I think i need to make myself happy again and I need to start focusing on what is important in life. Work wasn't my life before and I was happy because I had my own little business to deal with after work. It takes the stress away and i feel that it wasn't everything to me. Ever since i started reducing my after hours little business, I'm not as happy. So i guess I need to get that balance back!

Fingers crossed...i want to stay positive and happy..

Too much to drink..but had a great time..until

Love drinking sessions. So much fun until you get home and start throwing up. Haven't had that much to drink for a long time too. Girl at work drove me up the wall again and i just had enough. Went out for drinks straight after work with a bunch of frens and its free flow alcohol and well, since i needed it. I just went all out...had lots of fun and realised that almost everyone resigned.

I have finally decided to move on. It's no longer even about the salary anymore. I can't work with a bunch of idiots and if i am not learning anything and the company's not giving me much career options, I should go. Everyone has been encouraging me to go as well. The usual words of you're smart, you can do so much better, you are underutilised here etc etc...

Oh well..I've got an interview lined up next week and another company seems to be pretty keen to get me in for an interview after the closing date so fingers crossed. I want the job with a later closing date as they are paying a lot more and job is challenging but I'm a little concerned as the interviews are 1-2 weeks apart and what if i get a job offer before they offer me a job? Ekk..gotta start playing the delay strategy :)

Fingers crossed!

Been busy preparing my resume and cover letter. I really really want this new job that I'll be applying for. Might have to cancel my overseas trip in July but it is definitely worth it! So fingers crossed and hopefully, things will work out. Wish me lots of luck!!!!!

And valerie, if you are reading this...I WANT MY COACH BAG! :p

Besides that, I think i need to start adding new songs to my ipod and start listening to it to drown out all the nonsense at work. I dont mind what I am doing but the people around me just irritates me! Manager's typical women..over the top..dramatic..went back to work and I have been assigned to work with and train someone who has terrible work ethics and it is irritating the shit out of me. He's not interested and has been going for lots of interviews so it's hard to work with someone like that when I have a daily target to meet. Came up with a new plan and hopefully it will work. By the end of the week, my manager can ask how's the training. And well, I can say that he's taking half a day to do something that I finish in 1/2 hour and since he can't even copy with something simple, I don't see why I should train him on anything else.

I hate office politics..i'm praying hard that i'll get the new job...

hmm..proceed with care...

Today, someone contacted me and I feel that she is up to no good and only want some information so that she can go tell everyone else! Well I told her what I wanted her and the rest of the world to know and that's it :)

Some background information. I had major issues with this girl and the rest of the crowd. They are my ex-bf's friends. We had lots of arguments and I have said very unkind things about the feeling is mutual. I can say that they partly caused the breakup but I am glad they did that because looking back, I'm glad I didn't stay a single minute longer than I really should.

So anyhow, we stopped talking a long time ago and havent spoken for more than 2 years. I have blocked her on my MSN for a long time but feel that I shouldn't bear a grudge for so long and well, unblock her and made myself feel a lot better. So it must have been at least 6-12 months ever since and received my first message from her today, asking if i'm married! I wish I can tell her that I am happily married with kids and life's great but well, I had to tell her the truth and said I'm engaged for over a year now, followed by...how r u. Not that I care but I guess sometimes, no matter how you feel towards someone, you have to greet them or acknowledge them. So well..either how...proceed with care. Not going to give her a full rundown of my life so that she can add some spice and tell the rest of the world. :)

i'm so unproductive!

I reckon I don't have the discipline to stay at home and deal with an online business. I seem to be able to work better in a more stressful environment. I spend a lot of time surfing the net and doing 'research' so I guess i fit into a mechandiser's role nicely. Love sourcing and ordering goods but it is the rest of it that I have issues with. When I used to sell in a huge volume, I seem to be like a production line. I can just keep working non-stop but these days when I try and cut down and take things slowly, I practically do nothing!

Discipline.....i need to have discipline....

i'm tempted...if only life was all abt having fun!

Jetstar's having a sale! Take a friend for $3 sale! So well, flights to melbourne will only be $192 RETURN!!! Do I want to go to melbourne? YES YES YES! Should I go to Melbourne? NO NO NO :( So it is a tug of war between being rational and emotional again and well, i have to say that I am being rational this time and only reason is because I'm going to Singapore 1st week of july and I really shouldn't go to melbourne again. My bank account is bleeding profusely!

Why do i want to go to melbourne? To see my fiance's cousins! I absolutely adore them and his relatives are such fun people to hang out with! And most importantly, friends from work are going in August. I'm not too sure if i would want to go with them. I can imagine the non-stop shopping and drinking and i'll feel even more exhausted than before! I know we will have so much fun and it'll be like one of those days when you are out drinking and falling all over and you know you are having a great time until you have a hangover the next day! And since there will be 5 of us girls, fiance's going to feel left out or well, i dont think they want him to go anyway! It's meant to be a girly trip. So oh well, I guess I've found my own answer. I won't be going to melbourne...

Going out for drinks again on saturday night with the group..this time we're going for drinks at 5pm and then head off to the greyhounds or casino..will be fun gambling and drinking!

Gossip!

This is going to be a very 'bimbotic' post from me. Don't do it often so I guess I have the right to!

After we moved desk, I have a new girlfriend sitting beside me now. She drives me nuts some days but we get along pretty well. On Saturday, she confessed and told me that she used to like my director and they had well..shared a few kisses! Until she found out his married! And he was the one who was wasted and making all the moves etc etc! That bastard..next time i see him in the kitchen i should ask him...so how was your holiday? Spent time with your family? How's your son? Heard he's really cute! !#$^&^&&#@!

So anyway, this director's already sleeping with another manager and she's kinda his mistress and she's been very hostile and staring at my friend at work! Didn't know mistresses have such rights! He goes to bed with his wife everynight anyway! Oh well, women who are close to their use-by date behave strangly and will never be easy to comprehend :p Anyway she complained to HR about this director which explains his behaviour these days, keeping to himself and be content with a wife and a mistress!

Reckon we should start a sitcom about my workplace, will be very exciting. We'll have another company function next week so it will be exciting. Free flow of alcohol for a few hours is always exciting and messy at the same time :p

tired...

Work's been keeping me out of trouble! We had such a huge day yesterday that we received more work than last year's June 30. For those who aren't aware, June 30 is the last day of the financial year in Australia and it is always a mad rush! Being the most senior member of my team, I've been handling so much that it is ridiculous. Worked 6 days last week and will be working half day on saturday this week. Oh well, at least I'm getting paid overtime so I'm not complaining.

Signed my pay increment letter yesterday and well, can't say i am happy. I still feel that I deserve more! We're going to hear about the new pay structure around June so I'm hoping that I'll get another payrise in June. A quarterly payrise is always good! Been ripped off for a long time!

So well 1 1/2 more days and I'll be on holidays! I have so much to deal with that I don't know where to start. At least I am excited and motivated this time. I have so many ideas and so many things I want to do and I can finally sit down and deal with them so I can't wait!

hmm...not sure what's next!

And the sega goes on...I think what we did might have a positive outcome. That we managed to let someone who is impartial knows how we feel and got the message across. She came to speak to me a few times and at least I feel that I am being told what was going on about certain issues. I guess at the end of the day, i don't question the fact that she wants to be a good manager and wants everything to go smoothly. We might have started on a bad note but hopefully, things will improve.
So i'm safe for the moment..until someone spill the beans and tell her that i'm the culprit!

ekk..what have we done

Not too sure if I have officially ended my career or I should start emailing my resume around and get a new job because my life will be a living hell from tomorrow onwards!

Our director has been nudging us to speak up about the issues we have for several days. She has prompted us on many occasions but we have managed to avoid the topic and ignore the issues. We have a lot to say and it is not a very healthy working environment as everyone is unmotivated and morale is at an all time low all because of my manager's management style.

So well, we dropped the bombshell today. We had meetings with her and emailed her a massive email stating how we feel. I am the culprit and email was sent via my email. I read it and ensured that it is a very professional email highlighting our concerns and have clearly stated examples and how we feel. Copy and pasted everyone's feedback into a document as well so that it is just coming from me but it is a collective effort. Another team member had a meeting with her within the hour and so, our message was delivered and hammered in straight to the point. She assured us that she will be doing something about it and appreciate that we are talking to her.

Now the problem..the director got my manager to go see her and well, when she came back she slammed her notepad on her desk and went into the meeting room on her own, closed the door and made a personal phonecall. We knew we are dead after that. I am just wondering if she knows I sent that email and if she knows, my life will be over. So well next step is..if my life is made a living hell after this, at least I know who to go to next to resolve this issue. Guess when i have no reservations of resigning, it gives me that strength to fight this war. At least i'll be seen as a leader for the rest of the team and who knows, it might lead to bigger things. My courage for being able to address issues might be rewarded?

ekk...

what happened to morals?

I have been disgusted by the news that are dominating the headlines this week!

(1) The father of anna nicole smith's baby is the new blonde guy
(2) 2 men charged with kidnapping and plotting to murder a high school boy.
(3) High school students in top melbourne private schools beating up other kids

Well I have to say that I feel sorry for howard stern. His name is on the birth certificate and to be told that the kid you have always thought was yours, isn't really your kid...SUCKS! I reckon for a mother to not even know who the father is of your own baby is sad. There is something really wrong there.

As for those 2 men who kidnapped the high school boy, I wish both of you will burn in hell. How can 2 GROWN MEN rape a BOY and do all those sick stuff to him while he's being held captive for over 20 days? How sick can you get? And to even plot and use acid to dissolve his body? I hope God, Allah, Budhha and whoever out there who can hear me to give this kid strength to carry on with life. The physical scars will go but the emotional scars will be hard to get rid off.

Xavier college boys. All of you are such typical spoilt brats that believe you own the world but can be summarised as plain dickheads! So by throwing this boy in the rubbish bin, wheel him around and kick him makes you king of the world? And by filming this whole episode and distributing it all over myspace, you tube and via mms makes you invincible? At the end of the day, all of you are lonely pathetic dickheads that are empty in the head and have nothing. You are the real losers! It is the studious ones in the bin who got beaten up who will go to uni, study medicine, engineering, law etc etc and earn more than you. And all of you better start praying that you have an inheritance because that is your only hope!

Wonder where all the anger came from but I just feel that people have gone way out of hand. We were never brought up this way and you will never hear of such things 10-20 years ago. Kids these days are so shallow and pathetic and there is nothing behind all that makeup and they are all talk. What happened to all the upbringing and morals that were handed down generations ago?

was looking forward to it but....

I was looking forward to going back to work. Went out for drinks with friends from work yesterday since it was Matt's birthday and realised, I actually have a lot of SHIT to deal with! I went back to grab some stuff from my drawer today, thought I'll check my email and yup. I should be busy running around just dealing with my emails alone on Monday!

Not sure if every other company is the same but I am sick and tired of being the only person who deals with all the complicated SHIT! Someone resigned on Thursday and 2 have gone for interviews. That's how things are. People seem to stay less than 1 year in the company and leave and idoits like me who stayed for has been there for more than 3 years have to deal with all the lack of experience and knowledge, train someone and by the time they even know something, they leave again. And in the meantime, I have to deal with their errors, complains, overflowing backlog and hence, an unhappy workplace. So while others leave, I stay and be rewarded with an unhappy workplace and complains and shit to deal with. Pay sucks as well and I'm underpaid.

Use to tell myself, do i have a choice, yes. I can leave or get transferred. And if i'm not doing that, then well maybe I shouldn't complain. It's just getting so hard to survive. It's mid-apr now..another 9 more months and I'll be packing my bags and leaving for greener pastures. My fav slogan on my computer...HANG IN THERE MATE!!!!

I'm not cut out to be a housewife!

I tried grilling a fish for dinner 2 nights ago..turned the oven on, marinated the fish and 15-20mins later, the fish hasn't even cooked! Changed the oven settings and when the fish is cooked, it tasted disgusting! It tasted so fishy! I did apply salt and all to the fish but ekk.,..maybe the fish would have been better panfry than grilled! grr...made roast for dinner last and that turned out well. We had a feast! Pumpkin soup, pork roast, grilled potatoes, corn kennels..yummy.

I would trade all these just to go to work though. I can't stay at home all day long and it has only been 1 week!

first day as a housewife!

I'm bored..bored bored! Woke up when my fiance went to work today and that was 730am! I lazed in bed a little and by 8am, I was in front of the tv watching MTV! Did a few things, do some dishes, paid some bills, rang my mum and it was only 11am! I didn't know what to do! Took some food out of the freezer to prepare for lunch and well, I was unproductive the whole afternoon. There are things to do such as laundry, wouldn't harm doing some cleaning and tiding up the house but i just played computer games, surf the net, watch tv and that's it! Cooked dinner at 630pm and then back on the couch for more tv again!

Hopefully I'll be more productive tomorrow..... :)

work issues

Well, everyone at work hates my manager and that is a fact. For me, I don't really like the way she deals with things but I can see that she wants to try. She sends out emails telling us that things will improve etc etc but everyone seems to take whatever she says with a pinch of salt. Maybe I'm naive and fall for such tricks but I really just want to stay out of the way and do what I have to do and go home.

I just want my bloody payrise! I am the contact point for the product I deal with and the other guy in my team who is a contact point for another product is getting $1.5K more than me every month!
Payrise, payrise, payrise!

Escapism..

Everyone has lot's of problems and so do I. And i finally found my way of escaping from it all yesterday. I have been sitting on the couch the whole day watching nothing but Grey's anatomy!

Everyone's been going on about great a show it is but I have never taken an interest. I've never even watched a full episode until a fortnight ago! I have work to do, I have more important things to deal with and hence, I never had time for tv. These days, I have tried telling myself to relax..after the chestpains and having to go to emergency department and let doctors run a whole lot of tests, xrays, ecg etc etc. Life's never perfect and it takes a lot from a perfectionist to understand that things are fine not being perfect. I need to stop comparing myself to the best and wish how much more I could have done/achieve. I need to slow down and look at others. That I have done a lot better than others and there are people who would want to be me. People who are envious and wish they can have what I have..things that I take for granted.

So well, my new friend is greys anatomy. The show allows me to sit on the couch for hours without having to focus on anything else. So until I finish all the episodes that I have on hand, my new friend will be keeping me company and keeping me distracted and helping me relax and chill out. Where's my McDreamy and McHottie!!!!

i'm finally on holidays!

It is a long awaited break from work. Had to deal with a very nasty client yesterday and it was ridiculous. He kept coping a director into our emails and so I have to thread carefully. It was an issue that took 4 days to resolve and towards the end, it just seem more like a catfight or blaming game than anything else. If all information was provided at the start, I could have sorted it out on the spot but he gave me half the story, ran around dealing with stuff that I don't deal with (eg taxation etc etc) and then realise that there's more to the story everyday. Some people are just so difficult to deal with!

The director is interstate and from a totally different department. He didn't sound very friendly when he rang me up asking what the hell was going on. It was good to know that he is on my side and he wants me to sort this issue out and after that, he will be telling him to take his money somewhere else! Something you will only see when business is booming eh..we can actually tell our clients to take their millions to another bank!

At the end of the day, I'm glad that the director told me I did a great job and handled a clown very professionally. He asked me what my position is and well, he knows my name and can easily find out which department I work for etc etc. Hopefully all the running around and being abused by a ridiculous client will pay off. Hoping that he will at least email my director telling him what I have done..and a payrise since I'm meant to be promoted this month? :)

everyone's so down...

Everyone at work is very frustrated and unhappy. Looking at the brighter side, everyone still gets along very well but just seems to be a very unproductive and angry group on the whole. Everyone's upset with the manager and company. I've been trying to be the livewire or well, I have to say I am the livewire and made them laugh a few times today and I might bring in some easter eggs on Thursday to cheer everyone up. Gonna be on holiday from Thursday and I have a feeling, I will becoming back to a whole lot of backlog. According to stats, productivity is down 40-50% and at the same time, error rate has gone up!

I guess it is not really my job to motivate everyone at work but I guess I just want to do my best. Well I know what will cheer everyone up, knowing that our manager has resigned! Maybe I should try and achieve that instead :p

i wish i can..but i dont think i should

One of my close friends, emailed me today. If I am interested, I can submit my resume and I reckon I shouldn't have any problems getting the job. Unfortunately, it is in Singapore. Fiance and I are looking at moving to Singapore next year when the job market picks up. Main reason for moving there is more affordable housing, lower cost of living and better job opportunities.

And well, let's just say I can't wait! I feel as though I can finally reach for the stars. There will be more opportunities there in both the stock market and investment sense and career as well. However, I have to wait for my fiance to finish his certificate in some IT stuff before we can go. I know it won't be for long and it gives us time to plan and pack as well. But part of me feels like applying for all these jobs with Citibank, Barclays, HSBC etc etc and just pack my bags and go now! I wish I can..but I can't and I don't think it's fair. Fiance's born and bred in Australia and to him, moving overseas is a huge step. We should do it together and I shouldn't take off on my own and wait for him to join me when he's ready. It's not too long a wait and I know it gives us time to clear up whatever stuff we have here. Sell our furniture, clothing etc etc

So well, i wish i can leave now..but i can't and i shouldn't. Not too long now..HANG IN THERE!!

Why is his family so shallow?

So well, another thing i can complain about my fiance's family. I have to watch my mouth now but once I say 'I do' at the alter, I will bite their head off and will no longer hold back how I feel and what I really want to say!

Fiance got a new job and starts next week. The best part about his job is that he can wear polo shirts and jeans to work! Typical IT department geeks :p However, we bought a whole lot of pants and shirts while we were holidaying in Singapore and hence, we thought we'll give it all to his younger brother since he just got out of uni and started his first job in Jan/Feb. We gave it to him last week and today, he was showing us new pants that he bought! He was telling us that he got the 2nd pair half price and my fiance said, well it's still not as cheap as the ones we got from Singapore! His reply was but they ones you got are from Asia and these are from Roger David! HOW SHALLOW CAN A GUY BE! Those pants that we got were on sale..70% off and were originally $70-100! Well they are not Armani or Zegna but hey are decent pants. Moreover, he is just fresh out of uni and seriously, how many people on the streets of Perth will tell the difference between the brands that you are wearing anyway! Roger David isn't a designer brand and they are the same as any other pants found in Myer so what is the difference between what he bought as to what we bought in Singapore? I can understand what he's saying if I bought it from some night market in Thailand or Vietnam!

It is very upsetting and depressing that another of his sibling turns out this way. All my friends are well-to-do compared to his family and I never had friends who behave like them. As much as I hate to say this, could it be because they never had money in their family and now that they have some, it makes them feel as though they are better than everyone and anyone else?

I'm sick and tired of having such shallow and pathetic people as family. Thank god I picked the best one of the lot!

i'm back...

We exceeded our internet quota and we've been shaped to dialup for the past few days and it was a very traumatising experience. It took me so much longer to do a simple thing and I had so much to say in my blog for the last few days and didn't even get to do it!!! So well..here it goes...

I found out that this manager is dating my director! Ekk....well there's nothing wrong with office romance..this female manager is the typical bitch who's in her 30s, very slutty and bitchy and desperate. Well my problem is, the director is married with 2 kids! I don't blame women who date married men and are unaware that they are married. It's the women who know fully what they are getting themselves into that I despise. He has 2 kids who are in kindergarden. They moved from Scotland to Australia for less than 6mths. His poor wife, trying to get the kids accustomed to a new life/country and if she ever knows that he is sleeping with someone from work, how heartbreaking would that be? And i blame this female manager. Even if he seduce you and went all out, I believe it is the woman's job/position to turn a married man down. Why be the one to break up a family? So what will she get out of this? Wait for him to get a divorce and then realise that after 2-3 years, he is still uncertain if he wants a divorce and then threaten to walk out? I can see her calling his wife telling her all about it and how he likes her so much more!

So well, will be good to see what happens next. I'm hoping that he's dump her and she can walk around the office being the pathetic slut who got dumped. Some people have lots to deal with in their life and it is not fair but women like her, get herself into such problems and she deserve everything that will be heading her way!

something positive...

i've been thinking....thinking of trying to say something positive..and i realised..I HAVE NOTHING! I'm such a typical virgo..i love criticising everything because nothing is perfect and I want things to be perfect!

So well, anything positive to say. Nothing....i'm having monday blues and everything just seems terrible. I hate having to go to work on Monday and having to deal with problems and being treated like a kid. Have a manager with zero communication skills. She insists on having the last say even if she is repeating what I have just said in my email so well, its there black and white but she must have the last say. I'm trying not to step on her tail since she's only been there for a month. :( Life sucks...

i hate my female boss...

I have to say...I havent been very lucky with female bosses. Why isn't that I seem to get the single, older women who seem to have very low EQ and have no idea how to deal with people? There are many fantastic female bosses out there but why must i always GET THE LOUSY ONES! My manager, has absolutely no diplomacy. She isn't a fun person to work with and can't get things done. Loves to brag that she works 15 hours a day though. Would love to tell her straight in her face that if she knows her job and what to do, she wouldn't be working 15hours a day because the manager who just left is only there for 8 hours a day and no other managers seem to have that problem! Her job is to manage us and she can't even do a proper job. Some people are worker and some are leaders. She is definitely a worker and will never be a leader. And when you have someone like that as a leader, no wonder why everyone in the team is so sad, unmotivated and unhappy these days!

And lastly, I hate her decision to overide MY decision today. Told someone else that he can't do something due to compliance issues. He went to her and she decided that it's fine. I hope it comes back and bite her on her bum!

grr....

am I too practical?

Thats the question I've been asking myself for the past hour. I am a practical person. I am not the type of girl who wants flowers on valentines day or be pampered with presents. Sitting down beside me, hugging me and staring at the ocean means a lot more than a dozen of roses. I don't care and don't need presents on my birthday, christmas or valentines day. I rather be surprised...something out of the blue....

Well fiance and I are looking at getting a job in singapore. Main hurdle is, we need to produce a marriage certificate to get all the right visas. We are moving because we feel that we will do a lot better there, for both our careers and financially. If we continue to stay in Australia, I will be faced with a $400-500K mortgage by the time I'm 30 and will be spending the rest of my life paying it back. And repayments will clean up a big chunk of our salary and we won't have a life. Even renting is getting out of hand these days. The mining boom left people like us out of the boom and we're still earning as much as did but house prices have gone up 50-100%, interest rate is going up and cost of living is going up. Hence, the decision to go to somewhere where we can afford to put a roof over our head, get paid as much, pay a lot less taxes and have better career opportunities.

So what's holding us back? The marriage certificate is the main problem. I see it more as signing a paper to get what we want. Similar to buying a house, a car etc. We will have a wedding 2 years down the track where we saved up more money, have a church wedding for his parents, nice wedding dinner and all. Let us deal with the big move, settle down in a new place and new job before we start planning a wedding and do it properly. If we don't need the marriage certificate to get the visa, we wouldn't even bother trying to get it! However, we don't think his parents will see things the way we see it. We believe they will object to it and would want us to have a wedding before we move. We dont have $20K for a wedding and I don't want to have a wedding by end of this year. So if it comes down to that, should we have a long distance relationship? I don't believe in long distance relationship. It's very hard and based on a lot more trust and commitment. And if it is so difficult and he wouldn't even do it for us, can I trust him to do anything for me? Should i put him in such a tight situation and force him to choose and make his own decision?

I guess I'm scared because this time, I feel as though I'm more than happy to pack my bags and go to Singapore. If things don't work out between us, at least we tried and he made the choice of not coming along. We could have a future but he decided not to. And i guess thats why I'm scared...scared that I don't actually care if it comes down to that....

i've been bullied..but i will stand up..stronger and better

Been bullied by the big boys today. It was a lose-lose situation. Either way, I was going to lose and the only decision I could made was to walk out quietly and play by their rules, or take the gamble and prepare for a war that I have no confident in winning. I decided to walk out quietly. I am ready for war..but I don't know if the people that I need to help me fight this war will help me out. And over the years, I have found out how unreliable people can be and how best friends can leave you in the lurch at the very last minute.

Hence, I've decided to walk away but I have to say, I have came up with a few ideas and I have promised myself that I will walk away from this holding my head up because I know I will come back bigger and stronger and this time, nothing will stop me. And I can only console myself and to know that I am an innocent party and for all those who are guilty, there will be retribution.

Life can be so cruel sometimes. No matter how hard you try, how much effort you put in, someone can just walk in and destroy everything and all your efforts go down the drain. But well, when you are down and out, there's only one way and that is up. You can only climb back up and thank god whatever that you have achieved is rockbottom..because..rockbottom can be a lot worst than what it is!

So well, to all those who are at rockbottom or suffered unjustly, hold your head up and know that you will walk out better and stronger and this time..its your time!

wish me luck!

Thought I'll go to the job website and check what jobs are available out there and I found one which I am really interested in! Will definitely be replying for it and have all these ideas about how the interview will go and how I'll score in the interview. Fingers crossed! Its time I move on as I am no longer interested in what I am doing at the moment.

So well, wish me luck!

ekk...my pictures are on the web!

Went to my friend's blog today and realised that my photos are on her blog! I don't mind having my photos up but i looked really bad! I was tired that day and didn't put any make up on and look hideous! ekk...if only i knew..i know i might sound like a bimbo but hey, every girl wants to look gorgeous! oh well, damage done :)

My manager left last week and i lost all the motivation now. He's the best manager around. I guess he worked his way up and hence, he treat us as equal and speak to us at the same level. He has his own business as well and both of us have each other to rely on since we're in the same boat. He understands how it feels to have only 3-4 hours of sleep and we seem to have each other as a pillar of strength. We understand each other in a way most people dont. Every job has its ups and downs and our after hour business might not be smooth sailing all the time. He understand how it feels knowing that I have some problems to deal with and I can't because I have to be at my desk at work. He gave me all the freedom I want and allow me to come in to work later than everyone else and even get in late without having to work my hours back because he knows i'll put in double the effort for the rest of the day. There's this trust between us that I don't think will be possible with anyone else.

Before he left, he wrote me a very long email telling me that he's going to miss me most and most importantly, telling me that I am a very talented and capable girl who deserve a lot more than what the company has done for me. And to remember, I should be the one calling the shots and I should state my demands. Anyone and everyone should be glad they are invited to my party and not the other way round as whoever who's going to have me as a employee should thank their lucky star.

So well, thank you mike for all the kind words. I will remember what you say and I'm going to miss you! Hope we'll both make it to Forbes's 100 rich list one day! Cheers to someone who dares to dream like I do!

the stock market crashed and i might be the happiest ard!

Was waiting to invest more money in China stocks and had a feeling that correction should be happening pretty soon. AND I AM RIGHT! muah ha ha ha...then again, its not a hard one to predict that china market will correct and US will go into a recession this year or early next year. We have always seen how the world reacted to the US stock market..this time..its the China stockmarket that dragged the rest of the world with them. Signs that times have changed and China is no longer a force to reckon with? The chinese are hardworking bunch of people and they have conquered the world in such a short time. Everything is made in China these days and even our beloved italian brands have moved to get their products manufacturered in China for cost savings (but still kept their pricing the same as before!)

Since I'm only 26 and havent seen many recessions, what do people actually do when they feel that a market's going into recession? Do people actually pull their money out and sell? Well seems like the smart choice cos by selling, at least they won't have to lose a cent. It's been such a bullish market that isn't it a good time to pull out since there's more to lose than gain? And during a recession, would it be better to pull that money out and invest in real estate after prices start coming down and rent it out in the meantime before the market gains momentum again? any ideas anyone out there?

its been a long time....

I've been travelling for the past 3 weeks and I have to say it was a fantastic experience! Was in Melbourne for 10 days and Singapore for 2 weeks. Melbourne's great! Love it and we're thinking of moving to melbourne within the next 6-12 months. Fingers crossed! Had the yummiest coffee tiramisu at a restaurant in Crown as well! Singapore was a totally different cultural experience since its Chinese New Year. Did lots of shopping as well as they had my favourite four letter word 'SALE' everywhere! Didn't even have to go far hunting for bargains. Bought lots of geeky stuff. Love my new DVD player and it only cost me $90 for a Pioneer! New casing and leather case for my nano and nokia too! Will definitely be back in Singapore soon!

The only bad experience was on my way to Malaysia. It was only a day trip but I believe I ate something that agitated my tummy and had minor food poisoning. Rushed to the bathroom to puke before we left Singapore too! In Malaysia, you have to go to each bathroom you see because you never know where the next bathroom is! And the toilets are absolutely disgusting! You feel like puking even if you are well! For a start, you have to squat to use the bathroom! The worst was that you can't flush which is why a lot of the toilets have a huge tub filled with water so you basically use the scoop and wash whatever waste down. YUCKS!!!!

different level of risk

Sometimes, its because everyone's different that makes the world such a colourful place. Over the weekend, we had a discussion that brought a lot of pain...it was about this investment venture that didn't go through. The only reason behind it was due to different level of acceptable risk between us and my fiance's parents. Because we didn't go ahead with it, we lost out on making a $100K profit and his parents, another $100K. It wasn't huge but his parents don't see eye to eye with us and was worried and wasn't very comfortable with the amount of risk. The risk to us is neglible as we know that there is no way we will lose a cent on this. It was an investment in property and they were worried about us making the repayments. However, we were only interested in riding the boom and sell within 1 year...growth for the past year was 40%. We would have bought it and sold it within 6-8 months. Hence, the only thing we were looking out for in a house was potential growth in the area and location. He did tell me that his parents would know that it is a missed opportunity and will live to regret but just not telling us straight that they wished they had listen to us.

Been trying to look at it as a $100K profit that was never meant to be so it is not considered a loss...it was not something we could have achieved on our own as well since we don't have the capital. But it is still very painful...wonder when will this wound heal...a $100K wound...another opportunity down the drain...i wonder how many more opportunities do i have....

ideas that can't be actioned...

I came up with a business idea again...but just like many other ideas, I have to bin it as it involves a huge startup cost.

There's this guy at work...family's filthy rich. Has so much money that there is no need to work for the rest of his life. But the problem with him is, he don't know how to invest or make more money out of whatever he has! I've told him to invest in some managed funds with high growth, China, Emerging markets etc etc and he prefers to let it sit in some low growth fund and earn 17-19% when the ones I told him to invest in, grew 25-35% last financial year!!! His reply was, it was too hard..had to sell down the whole portfolio and buy again.

Here I am, trying to maximise what I've got and hopefully, make the best investment choices and that my online business will bring me a steady income. If i had his money, I would have jumped on a lot of opportunities and would have made a fair bit...oh well, I guess that's life. Not everyone has that money making instinct or a sound business brain. I should thank god that I have one and hopefully, make full use of every opportunity I have :)

Women can be such bitches

I really don't understand why women can be so difficult. And when you're not in their good books, they will come up with all kinds of ideas to make your life difficult..or rather..a living hell. My enemy for the day...a manager at work who's in her 30s, unmarried, desperate and suits the title 'bitch' to a T! I had a run in with her 18 mths ago but guess, that is still fresh in her mind.

I've met many women who are single, in their 30s and are happy. I wish they can all be like that. Unfortunately, there are a lot more who are single and very angry at the world for their situation. I have to say that sometimes, SOME women dress, behave and act in a certain way that attracts the wrong type of guy. And who can they blame? If you're wasted a few nights a week at the pub and falling everywhere, why should you complain that men don't want a serious relationship but only wanna have sex? You have afterall, created a image to men that you are wasted, out for a good time and am an easy target? So therefore, i strongly believe that a person's behaviour and character is the main driving force behind who you meet and the type of relationship you'll have.

As for this manager at work, how about having a makeover, wipe that 'i am angry with the world' look off your face and have be more approachable? Bitchyness will take you no where and only increase the number of enemies you have around you. With that look in your eyes and on your face, don't you even dare wonder why you are still a spinster! And in the mean time, i shall flash my huge engagement ring at your face and all you can do is look in envy. You can earn more than me but at the end of the day, I have a more fulfilling and happier life than you and most importantly, I am surrounded by wonderful people. :)

People can be so nasty!!!

Went to the post office today and there was this guy who made an unnecessary remark and that I wished I could turn around and say, if you have nothing good to say, then keep your mouth shut!

Why are people so nasty and angry? The worst thing is, they take it out on others who are innocent and are just serving them at the bank, post office, shops or over the phone. Over the years, I realised that life is never smooth sailing. When things don't turn out the way we want it to, why take it out on others. How about focusing on solving the problem than complain about the problem?

This could be what I learn in buddhism, to learn to stay calm and not get to worked up because thats when you make even more mistakes. I have to admit that I have been in scenarios where I feel like screaming and there's so much anger in me that I need to take some timeout and go for a 5min walk at the park and once, went to the bathroom and cried. At the end of the day, at least I know that I didn't say anything in anger and I gave myself an opportunity to calm down and make the necessary decisions.

Plus, there's the problem or karma/retribution! Be nice to others and they will be nice to you as well! Screaming, shouting and being nasty wouldn't solve the problem. Well, the post office didn't do what I want them to do today as well and I spoke to the manager and got them to get around the situation. I left getting what i needed to do, done. Isn't it all that matters?

So hopefully, people can be less angry. Everyone's stressed and everyone has problems to deal with. There is absolutely no need to take it out on anyone.

Shane and Simone Warne

For those who don't know Shane Warne, he is one of Australia's top cricket player. He has been caught on numerous occasions having affairs with many women, which was one of the reasons why simone left him. They are separated but still live together (??) so that it wouldn't affect the 2 beautiful kids. Now, there's talks that they are back together. Some would call her stupid for letting him hurt and embarass her time and time again.

I feel that when a marriage breaks down and there's kids involved, there are so many decisions to make. Do you walk away because you believe you should and you deserve another chance at happiness or should you stay in an unhappy marriage for the kids. She has given him numerous chances but he has failed her time and time again. There must be a lot of women out there faced with this question.

Divorce is such a common thing these days and you never know if a relationship is going to last forever. I have to say that people do get married for the wrong reason as well. However, I feel that people don't seem to put in any effort to maintain the relationship after marriage. It must be worst when you start having kids. There's no longer time to go out for a nice quiet meal together, take a stroll at the park or just lie in each other's arms. At the end of the day, the most important thing I guess is not to take each other for granted. One shouldn't assume that their partners will be there for them no matter what you do.

Everyone loves to be pampered and pampering doesn't mean buying a huge diamond ring or bringing them shopping. Pampering can be simple, eg watching the sunset, stroll at the beach, lie on the grass at the park reading together etc etc.


So well, to everyone out there, hopefully we'll all treasure what we have. :)

Saddam Hussein's execution is on You Tube!

Well, I had this weird feeling that Saddam Hussein's execution will be on You Tube pretty soon and I was right. EVERYTHING IS ON YOU TUBE THESE DAYS! I have not watched the execution and I don't think I'll ever watch it. I can never handle movies like Saw and don't think it's a very nice thing to watch.

I have always felt that there is a conspiracy theory behind Saddam Hussein. Wasn't very convinced about George Bush's idea of 'weapons of mass destruction' and then proceed to bomb a country. They finally found Saddam Hussein in a tiny hole and it was all over the news...and after that, nothing. Not a single word about where he is, how he is and then the trial. I knew he will be executed but it was pretty shocking that it was carried out so swiftly. Is that the real Saddam Hussein, did they really execute him and is he really dead? I guess sometimes, we can only trust what's reported. And thats the problem. I don't trust what's in the news anymore, especially when it comes to politics and war.

paris hilton...

I was watching news today and well...paris hilton was mentioned. I have to say that somedays, i actually reckon she's a smart businesswoman. How did she become who she is today? She can't sing, she's not beautiful or elegant and I can name countless people who are more talented than her!

I reckon she's all about marketing. It doesn't matter whether we believe what she says, people actually talk about her and discuss how much they dislike her and how childish, naive or silly her latest behaviour is! She puts herself in the spotlight everyday, have her photographs splashed all over the gossip magazine and thats how she earns her pocket money. Apparently, she was offered $5 million to come to Australia to promote a beer over the festive season! She has created her own reality tv to put herself in the spotlight, i'm not surprise if she is the one who actually release her own sex video and she must have paid lots to the producers who made her first album so that we can hear her purr.

Paris Hilton is the best example of what money can buy and what you can achieve with money! Unfortunately, she has an expiry date. I don't think she's close to it but there will be one day..where we will give up and stop wanting to hear about her. She will start getting wrinkles and end up having botox and plastic surgery. There has been a few engagement and there will be a few more engagements, weddings and divorce. Feels as though we can tell her lifestory even before she actually lives it!

I guess at the end of the day, the question that I would love an honest answer from paris would be, is this all worth it? Is being followed by paparazzi and giving up all that freedom worth it just to get attention from the rest of the world? She is after all a hilton..and I believe that there is enough $ for her to be buying hermes, chloe, jimmy choos, dine at top restaurants, party her life away, travel around the world and not work a single day of her life. I wonder if there will be a time further down the track where she'll sit back and wonder to herself...what if she actually chose to lead a normal heiress life.....

Thats life isn't it? Being at the crossroad everyday, making decisions and wonder if that was the right decision to make? Will we live to regret our decisions? Time will tell :)