First day of Winter..

It's officially winter..and it is cold. The heater is my new best fren and I leave it on for hours everyday. Minimum of 5 degrees today and I can't leave home without my winter trench coat that keeps me warm. Its my fav coat and I don't think I'll ever survive without it.

Its snowing in Melbourne as well and I remembered how we wanted to book the flights and go to melbourne for a skiing session with my fiance's relatives and cousins. Glad we didn't book it since it won't fit in very well with the new job and my coming trip to Singapore in July. Oh well, guess we just have to remember that life isn't all about having fun sometimes!

Dean Geyer

The new pretty boy who can sing :)

Not too sure if i'll be succesful in adding his photos so visit his website http://www.deangeyer.net/

I reckon he's hot and definitely the model material but I thought he was a little smug when I saw his interview last year.

Wentworth Miller and McHottie are still cutie though..its a tough decision..

Life after resigning is...FANTASTIC

In Australia, employers don't payout your sick leave when you resign. Hence, a lot of previous employees who have left take lots of sick days after they resign. I'm trying not to burn the bridge but I have to admit that I just simply can't be bothered! I worked but not as hard and things that use to bother me, don't bother me anymore. I'll go to the kitchen and grab a cup of water every hour, walk around the floor and had lots of 5min chats. Sent lots of emails and even rang a few places and followup on my own personal stuff.

My manager asked me today 'Are you sure you want to leave?' I thank god for giving me the strength to be able to lie and say ' Its a tough decision but I guess there's no turning back now' when what I had in mind was 'Are you serious? I was hoping to give only 1 week notice instead of 2!'

7 days more to go...I cant wait to start my new job..but i'm scared at the same time..I'm scared of a new place, a new life and the unknown. Scary but exciting at the same time. I'm worried that I won't be able to pass my DFP even though I know I will and EVERYONE know I will. Its just so scary that life doesn't really go on if you don't pass that exam. It's like the end of the road and you can forget about advancing. And just hearing everyone saying 'You're smart, you won't have any problems passing' that stresses me out even more!

think...think...think

Was watching CNBC and it made me depress. They had a feature on 2 startup companies. First was 2 women who started the hunt for vegetarian marshmellow. Alright...NO ONE will think that veg marshmellow will make you rich! 2nd guy, decided to make his own massive bean bag and because so many people liked it, he decide to start a company selling it etc etc and well, he's making $2million a year just selling beanbags!!

Think..think...think...i have to come up with something..always had lots of ideas..where are they now! I knew I should have written all of them down!!!

Sorrento Restaurant in Northbridge

Unless I'm invited, I will never step into this restaurant again. It started off as a very nice experience. Fantastic service, good food and yummy dessert. It all went down when the owner came over and said 'that group of people are waiting for your table' and left. Well excuse me? I am having a meal and I am paying every single cent for it. We've only been at the restaurant for about an hour and almost done with dessert. It was a full meal with entre, mains and dessert and I don't think we are hogging the table. Just because the restaurant is full and you have people who want to dine there, YOU DONT CHASE OTHER CUSTOMERS OUT JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE ALMOST DONE!!!! Another waiter came and clear the plates and even dropped of the bill!! WE DIDN'T ASK FOR THE BILL!! They OVERCHARGED US FOR AN ITEM too! Well they made their mistake and gave us something that we didn't ask for and WE HAVE TO PAY FOR IT????

Food's good but towards the end, service is horrendous and I WILL NEVER RECOMMEND ANYONE TO THIS RESTAURANT!!! If you really have to go, go at 8pm so that by the time you're done, there won't be any customers so no one will harass you and try and chase you out of the restaurant. And mind you, it's not a cheap restaurant as well!!

in a world of my own!

Somedays, I'm in a world of my own and I basically switch off. I'm oblivious to the rest of the world and dont allow anyone in. This normally happen in the morning before I had my coffee. Well I didn't get my cup of coffee today and I spaced out at the checkout counter. The checkout chick said hi to me, I totally ignored her, ignored what my fiance said to me and well just stand there and space out!

Didn't realise what I did until my fiance asked me what i'm thinking of because it was strange how i totally ignored someone. I actually had no idea that she said hi and even what my fiance said after that. Felt really bad after that. Someone actually tried to be friendly and say hi and I just ignored her. Oh well...but hmm...isn't it scary that I'm in a world of my own and oblivious to the world. I'm starting to believe now...that coffee is an essential part of my life. I'm addicted..and I can't function properly without it!

the end....

Had my performance review with my manager, did very well and let her know what my concerns are and what I want from the company. This has been something weighing very heavily on my mind for the past few weeks and it feels like its time. The last time the company promised me something, it didn't happen. I told her that once bitten twice shy. I don't know if I have the courage to believe that I will be rewarded for what I have contributed to the company. There's a lack of knowledge at this point in time and I have that to my advantage and after I've imparted all my knowledge, I'm pretty much useless isn't it?

Anyway, went for an interview and I was surprised that I got the job offer within 2 hours. The salary wasn't what I'm expecting but this is a company that is willing to send me on financial planning courses, pay for it and train me to be a full fledge financial planner. They are promising me a future..something that my company can't.

So I guess thats it for me...i've met frens that i will keep for life and I'll miss them. I thank the company for teaching me how corporate life is and grow from a naive and trustworthy person to someone who is mature and understand the ins and outs of business. I'm upset and I wish I don't have to leave but I know this will be good for me.

Thank you...and THE END.....

just when i thought it couldn't get worst...

It did got worst...what happenened brought a few laughter and definitely a smile to many fren's face and brighten up their day but I just want to crawl into a hole.

So well..i've sent my resume to a recruiter, went for an interview and they have decided to 'market' me to a few potential employers. Found a fantastic opportunity and emailed my resume to the director there. Unfortunately, THE EMPLOYER IS MY CURRENT COMPANY!! THEY EMAILED MY RESUME BACK TO MY DIRECTOR!! Her reply to the recruiter was -

Thank you for forwarding this candidate's resume. She is definitely a very suitable candidate but unfortunately, she is working for us at the moment.

So after the drama in the meeting, they had to rub it in and emailed my resume to my director. Thanks guys...~!#$%%$#@#! I've never swore so much in my life. Again, I have to go speak to her and do some damage control.

Please let me swear just one last time..

YOU MOTHERFUCKERS! ISN'T IT COMMON SENSE THAT AS A RECRUITER, YOU DONT EMAIL YOUR CANDIDATE'S RESUME BACK TO THEIR OWN EMPLOYER/COMPANY??? NOT EVERYONE CAN WALK TO THEIR OWN DIRECTOR AND HAVE A 5MIN CHAT!!

Had to stay professional on the phone when they told me what happened..so well...got it out of my system now. bloody d*ckheads..you better get me a high paying job soon as compensation..

i lost it..and i hate myself for doing what i did

I did something that i regretted today. Had to do some damage control after that but I am still feeling bad. Wasn't feeling very well before a meeting and I tried to get out of it but was forced to go. Felt like throwing up and was feeling sick and having an hour of meeting isn't the best. The meeting was a get together for everyone to whinge to the director and towards the end of the hour, i just snapped. I went off and said things i shouldn't have. It wouldn't have been so bad if we werent force to get out of the meeting room but we had to as it was booked for something else so everything was left dangling. Had a chat with my director and manager after that and well i guess damage control was successful.

I think i need to make myself happy again and I need to start focusing on what is important in life. Work wasn't my life before and I was happy because I had my own little business to deal with after work. It takes the stress away and i feel that it wasn't everything to me. Ever since i started reducing my after hours little business, I'm not as happy. So i guess I need to get that balance back!

Fingers crossed...i want to stay positive and happy..

Too much to drink..but had a great time..until

Love drinking sessions. So much fun until you get home and start throwing up. Haven't had that much to drink for a long time too. Girl at work drove me up the wall again and i just had enough. Went out for drinks straight after work with a bunch of frens and its free flow alcohol and well, since i needed it. I just went all out...had lots of fun and realised that almost everyone resigned.

I have finally decided to move on. It's no longer even about the salary anymore. I can't work with a bunch of idiots and if i am not learning anything and the company's not giving me much career options, I should go. Everyone has been encouraging me to go as well. The usual words of you're smart, you can do so much better, you are underutilised here etc etc...

Oh well..I've got an interview lined up next week and another company seems to be pretty keen to get me in for an interview after the closing date so fingers crossed. I want the job with a later closing date as they are paying a lot more and job is challenging but I'm a little concerned as the interviews are 1-2 weeks apart and what if i get a job offer before they offer me a job? Ekk..gotta start playing the delay strategy :)

Fingers crossed!

Been busy preparing my resume and cover letter. I really really want this new job that I'll be applying for. Might have to cancel my overseas trip in July but it is definitely worth it! So fingers crossed and hopefully, things will work out. Wish me lots of luck!!!!!

And valerie, if you are reading this...I WANT MY COACH BAG! :p

Besides that, I think i need to start adding new songs to my ipod and start listening to it to drown out all the nonsense at work. I dont mind what I am doing but the people around me just irritates me! Manager's typical women..over the top..dramatic..went back to work and I have been assigned to work with and train someone who has terrible work ethics and it is irritating the shit out of me. He's not interested and has been going for lots of interviews so it's hard to work with someone like that when I have a daily target to meet. Came up with a new plan and hopefully it will work. By the end of the week, my manager can ask how's the training. And well, I can say that he's taking half a day to do something that I finish in 1/2 hour and since he can't even copy with something simple, I don't see why I should train him on anything else.

I hate office politics..i'm praying hard that i'll get the new job...

hmm..proceed with care...

Today, someone contacted me and I feel that she is up to no good and only want some information so that she can go tell everyone else! Well I told her what I wanted her and the rest of the world to know and that's it :)

Some background information. I had major issues with this girl and the rest of the crowd. They are my ex-bf's friends. We had lots of arguments and I have said very unkind things about the feeling is mutual. I can say that they partly caused the breakup but I am glad they did that because looking back, I'm glad I didn't stay a single minute longer than I really should.

So anyhow, we stopped talking a long time ago and havent spoken for more than 2 years. I have blocked her on my MSN for a long time but feel that I shouldn't bear a grudge for so long and well, unblock her and made myself feel a lot better. So it must have been at least 6-12 months ever since and received my first message from her today, asking if i'm married! I wish I can tell her that I am happily married with kids and life's great but well, I had to tell her the truth and said I'm engaged for over a year now, followed by...how r u. Not that I care but I guess sometimes, no matter how you feel towards someone, you have to greet them or acknowledge them. So well..either how...proceed with care. Not going to give her a full rundown of my life so that she can add some spice and tell the rest of the world. :)

i'm so unproductive!

I reckon I don't have the discipline to stay at home and deal with an online business. I seem to be able to work better in a more stressful environment. I spend a lot of time surfing the net and doing 'research' so I guess i fit into a mechandiser's role nicely. Love sourcing and ordering goods but it is the rest of it that I have issues with. When I used to sell in a huge volume, I seem to be like a production line. I can just keep working non-stop but these days when I try and cut down and take things slowly, I practically do nothing!

Discipline.....i need to have discipline....

i'm tempted...if only life was all abt having fun!

Jetstar's having a sale! Take a friend for $3 sale! So well, flights to melbourne will only be $192 RETURN!!! Do I want to go to melbourne? YES YES YES! Should I go to Melbourne? NO NO NO :( So it is a tug of war between being rational and emotional again and well, i have to say that I am being rational this time and only reason is because I'm going to Singapore 1st week of july and I really shouldn't go to melbourne again. My bank account is bleeding profusely!

Why do i want to go to melbourne? To see my fiance's cousins! I absolutely adore them and his relatives are such fun people to hang out with! And most importantly, friends from work are going in August. I'm not too sure if i would want to go with them. I can imagine the non-stop shopping and drinking and i'll feel even more exhausted than before! I know we will have so much fun and it'll be like one of those days when you are out drinking and falling all over and you know you are having a great time until you have a hangover the next day! And since there will be 5 of us girls, fiance's going to feel left out or well, i dont think they want him to go anyway! It's meant to be a girly trip. So oh well, I guess I've found my own answer. I won't be going to melbourne...

Going out for drinks again on saturday night with the group..this time we're going for drinks at 5pm and then head off to the greyhounds or casino..will be fun gambling and drinking!