i've been thinking....thinking of trying to say something positive..and i realised..I HAVE NOTHING! I'm such a typical virgo..i love criticising everything because nothing is perfect and I want things to be perfect!
So well, anything positive to say. Nothing....i'm having monday blues and everything just seems terrible. I hate having to go to work on Monday and having to deal with problems and being treated like a kid. Have a manager with zero communication skills. She insists on having the last say even if she is repeating what I have just said in my email so well, its there black and white but she must have the last say. I'm trying not to step on her tail since she's only been there for a month. :( Life sucks...
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
i hate my female boss...
I have to say...I havent been very lucky with female bosses. Why isn't that I seem to get the single, older women who seem to have very low EQ and have no idea how to deal with people? There are many fantastic female bosses out there but why must i always GET THE LOUSY ONES! My manager, has absolutely no diplomacy. She isn't a fun person to work with and can't get things done. Loves to brag that she works 15 hours a day though. Would love to tell her straight in her face that if she knows her job and what to do, she wouldn't be working 15hours a day because the manager who just left is only there for 8 hours a day and no other managers seem to have that problem! Her job is to manage us and she can't even do a proper job. Some people are worker and some are leaders. She is definitely a worker and will never be a leader. And when you have someone like that as a leader, no wonder why everyone in the team is so sad, unmotivated and unhappy these days!
And lastly, I hate her decision to overide MY decision today. Told someone else that he can't do something due to compliance issues. He went to her and she decided that it's fine. I hope it comes back and bite her on her bum!
grr....
And lastly, I hate her decision to overide MY decision today. Told someone else that he can't do something due to compliance issues. He went to her and she decided that it's fine. I hope it comes back and bite her on her bum!
grr....
Sunday, March 18, 2007
am I too practical?
Thats the question I've been asking myself for the past hour. I am a practical person. I am not the type of girl who wants flowers on valentines day or be pampered with presents. Sitting down beside me, hugging me and staring at the ocean means a lot more than a dozen of roses. I don't care and don't need presents on my birthday, christmas or valentines day. I rather be surprised...something out of the blue....
Well fiance and I are looking at getting a job in singapore. Main hurdle is, we need to produce a marriage certificate to get all the right visas. We are moving because we feel that we will do a lot better there, for both our careers and financially. If we continue to stay in Australia, I will be faced with a $400-500K mortgage by the time I'm 30 and will be spending the rest of my life paying it back. And repayments will clean up a big chunk of our salary and we won't have a life. Even renting is getting out of hand these days. The mining boom left people like us out of the boom and we're still earning as much as did but house prices have gone up 50-100%, interest rate is going up and cost of living is going up. Hence, the decision to go to somewhere where we can afford to put a roof over our head, get paid as much, pay a lot less taxes and have better career opportunities.
So what's holding us back? The marriage certificate is the main problem. I see it more as signing a paper to get what we want. Similar to buying a house, a car etc. We will have a wedding 2 years down the track where we saved up more money, have a church wedding for his parents, nice wedding dinner and all. Let us deal with the big move, settle down in a new place and new job before we start planning a wedding and do it properly. If we don't need the marriage certificate to get the visa, we wouldn't even bother trying to get it! However, we don't think his parents will see things the way we see it. We believe they will object to it and would want us to have a wedding before we move. We dont have $20K for a wedding and I don't want to have a wedding by end of this year. So if it comes down to that, should we have a long distance relationship? I don't believe in long distance relationship. It's very hard and based on a lot more trust and commitment. And if it is so difficult and he wouldn't even do it for us, can I trust him to do anything for me? Should i put him in such a tight situation and force him to choose and make his own decision?
I guess I'm scared because this time, I feel as though I'm more than happy to pack my bags and go to Singapore. If things don't work out between us, at least we tried and he made the choice of not coming along. We could have a future but he decided not to. And i guess thats why I'm scared...scared that I don't actually care if it comes down to that....
Well fiance and I are looking at getting a job in singapore. Main hurdle is, we need to produce a marriage certificate to get all the right visas. We are moving because we feel that we will do a lot better there, for both our careers and financially. If we continue to stay in Australia, I will be faced with a $400-500K mortgage by the time I'm 30 and will be spending the rest of my life paying it back. And repayments will clean up a big chunk of our salary and we won't have a life. Even renting is getting out of hand these days. The mining boom left people like us out of the boom and we're still earning as much as did but house prices have gone up 50-100%, interest rate is going up and cost of living is going up. Hence, the decision to go to somewhere where we can afford to put a roof over our head, get paid as much, pay a lot less taxes and have better career opportunities.
So what's holding us back? The marriage certificate is the main problem. I see it more as signing a paper to get what we want. Similar to buying a house, a car etc. We will have a wedding 2 years down the track where we saved up more money, have a church wedding for his parents, nice wedding dinner and all. Let us deal with the big move, settle down in a new place and new job before we start planning a wedding and do it properly. If we don't need the marriage certificate to get the visa, we wouldn't even bother trying to get it! However, we don't think his parents will see things the way we see it. We believe they will object to it and would want us to have a wedding before we move. We dont have $20K for a wedding and I don't want to have a wedding by end of this year. So if it comes down to that, should we have a long distance relationship? I don't believe in long distance relationship. It's very hard and based on a lot more trust and commitment. And if it is so difficult and he wouldn't even do it for us, can I trust him to do anything for me? Should i put him in such a tight situation and force him to choose and make his own decision?
I guess I'm scared because this time, I feel as though I'm more than happy to pack my bags and go to Singapore. If things don't work out between us, at least we tried and he made the choice of not coming along. We could have a future but he decided not to. And i guess thats why I'm scared...scared that I don't actually care if it comes down to that....
Monday, March 12, 2007
i've been bullied..but i will stand up..stronger and better
Been bullied by the big boys today. It was a lose-lose situation. Either way, I was going to lose and the only decision I could made was to walk out quietly and play by their rules, or take the gamble and prepare for a war that I have no confident in winning. I decided to walk out quietly. I am ready for war..but I don't know if the people that I need to help me fight this war will help me out. And over the years, I have found out how unreliable people can be and how best friends can leave you in the lurch at the very last minute.
Hence, I've decided to walk away but I have to say, I have came up with a few ideas and I have promised myself that I will walk away from this holding my head up because I know I will come back bigger and stronger and this time, nothing will stop me. And I can only console myself and to know that I am an innocent party and for all those who are guilty, there will be retribution.
Life can be so cruel sometimes. No matter how hard you try, how much effort you put in, someone can just walk in and destroy everything and all your efforts go down the drain. But well, when you are down and out, there's only one way and that is up. You can only climb back up and thank god whatever that you have achieved is rockbottom..because..rockbottom can be a lot worst than what it is!
So well, to all those who are at rockbottom or suffered unjustly, hold your head up and know that you will walk out better and stronger and this time..its your time!
Hence, I've decided to walk away but I have to say, I have came up with a few ideas and I have promised myself that I will walk away from this holding my head up because I know I will come back bigger and stronger and this time, nothing will stop me. And I can only console myself and to know that I am an innocent party and for all those who are guilty, there will be retribution.
Life can be so cruel sometimes. No matter how hard you try, how much effort you put in, someone can just walk in and destroy everything and all your efforts go down the drain. But well, when you are down and out, there's only one way and that is up. You can only climb back up and thank god whatever that you have achieved is rockbottom..because..rockbottom can be a lot worst than what it is!
So well, to all those who are at rockbottom or suffered unjustly, hold your head up and know that you will walk out better and stronger and this time..its your time!
Saturday, March 3, 2007
wish me luck!
Thought I'll go to the job website and check what jobs are available out there and I found one which I am really interested in! Will definitely be replying for it and have all these ideas about how the interview will go and how I'll score in the interview. Fingers crossed! Its time I move on as I am no longer interested in what I am doing at the moment.
So well, wish me luck!
So well, wish me luck!
Friday, March 2, 2007
ekk...my pictures are on the web!
Went to my friend's blog today and realised that my photos are on her blog! I don't mind having my photos up but i looked really bad! I was tired that day and didn't put any make up on and look hideous! ekk...if only i knew..i know i might sound like a bimbo but hey, every girl wants to look gorgeous! oh well, damage done :)
My manager left last week and i lost all the motivation now. He's the best manager around. I guess he worked his way up and hence, he treat us as equal and speak to us at the same level. He has his own business as well and both of us have each other to rely on since we're in the same boat. He understands how it feels to have only 3-4 hours of sleep and we seem to have each other as a pillar of strength. We understand each other in a way most people dont. Every job has its ups and downs and our after hour business might not be smooth sailing all the time. He understand how it feels knowing that I have some problems to deal with and I can't because I have to be at my desk at work. He gave me all the freedom I want and allow me to come in to work later than everyone else and even get in late without having to work my hours back because he knows i'll put in double the effort for the rest of the day. There's this trust between us that I don't think will be possible with anyone else.
Before he left, he wrote me a very long email telling me that he's going to miss me most and most importantly, telling me that I am a very talented and capable girl who deserve a lot more than what the company has done for me. And to remember, I should be the one calling the shots and I should state my demands. Anyone and everyone should be glad they are invited to my party and not the other way round as whoever who's going to have me as a employee should thank their lucky star.
So well, thank you mike for all the kind words. I will remember what you say and I'm going to miss you! Hope we'll both make it to Forbes's 100 rich list one day! Cheers to someone who dares to dream like I do!
My manager left last week and i lost all the motivation now. He's the best manager around. I guess he worked his way up and hence, he treat us as equal and speak to us at the same level. He has his own business as well and both of us have each other to rely on since we're in the same boat. He understands how it feels to have only 3-4 hours of sleep and we seem to have each other as a pillar of strength. We understand each other in a way most people dont. Every job has its ups and downs and our after hour business might not be smooth sailing all the time. He understand how it feels knowing that I have some problems to deal with and I can't because I have to be at my desk at work. He gave me all the freedom I want and allow me to come in to work later than everyone else and even get in late without having to work my hours back because he knows i'll put in double the effort for the rest of the day. There's this trust between us that I don't think will be possible with anyone else.
Before he left, he wrote me a very long email telling me that he's going to miss me most and most importantly, telling me that I am a very talented and capable girl who deserve a lot more than what the company has done for me. And to remember, I should be the one calling the shots and I should state my demands. Anyone and everyone should be glad they are invited to my party and not the other way round as whoever who's going to have me as a employee should thank their lucky star.
So well, thank you mike for all the kind words. I will remember what you say and I'm going to miss you! Hope we'll both make it to Forbes's 100 rich list one day! Cheers to someone who dares to dream like I do!
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