Gossip!

This is going to be a very 'bimbotic' post from me. Don't do it often so I guess I have the right to!

After we moved desk, I have a new girlfriend sitting beside me now. She drives me nuts some days but we get along pretty well. On Saturday, she confessed and told me that she used to like my director and they had well..shared a few kisses! Until she found out his married! And he was the one who was wasted and making all the moves etc etc! That bastard..next time i see him in the kitchen i should ask him...so how was your holiday? Spent time with your family? How's your son? Heard he's really cute! !#$^&^&&#@!

So anyway, this director's already sleeping with another manager and she's kinda his mistress and she's been very hostile and staring at my friend at work! Didn't know mistresses have such rights! He goes to bed with his wife everynight anyway! Oh well, women who are close to their use-by date behave strangly and will never be easy to comprehend :p Anyway she complained to HR about this director which explains his behaviour these days, keeping to himself and be content with a wife and a mistress!

Reckon we should start a sitcom about my workplace, will be very exciting. We'll have another company function next week so it will be exciting. Free flow of alcohol for a few hours is always exciting and messy at the same time :p

tired...

Work's been keeping me out of trouble! We had such a huge day yesterday that we received more work than last year's June 30. For those who aren't aware, June 30 is the last day of the financial year in Australia and it is always a mad rush! Being the most senior member of my team, I've been handling so much that it is ridiculous. Worked 6 days last week and will be working half day on saturday this week. Oh well, at least I'm getting paid overtime so I'm not complaining.

Signed my pay increment letter yesterday and well, can't say i am happy. I still feel that I deserve more! We're going to hear about the new pay structure around June so I'm hoping that I'll get another payrise in June. A quarterly payrise is always good! Been ripped off for a long time!

So well 1 1/2 more days and I'll be on holidays! I have so much to deal with that I don't know where to start. At least I am excited and motivated this time. I have so many ideas and so many things I want to do and I can finally sit down and deal with them so I can't wait!

hmm...not sure what's next!

And the sega goes on...I think what we did might have a positive outcome. That we managed to let someone who is impartial knows how we feel and got the message across. She came to speak to me a few times and at least I feel that I am being told what was going on about certain issues. I guess at the end of the day, i don't question the fact that she wants to be a good manager and wants everything to go smoothly. We might have started on a bad note but hopefully, things will improve.
So i'm safe for the moment..until someone spill the beans and tell her that i'm the culprit!

ekk..what have we done

Not too sure if I have officially ended my career or I should start emailing my resume around and get a new job because my life will be a living hell from tomorrow onwards!

Our director has been nudging us to speak up about the issues we have for several days. She has prompted us on many occasions but we have managed to avoid the topic and ignore the issues. We have a lot to say and it is not a very healthy working environment as everyone is unmotivated and morale is at an all time low all because of my manager's management style.

So well, we dropped the bombshell today. We had meetings with her and emailed her a massive email stating how we feel. I am the culprit and email was sent via my email. I read it and ensured that it is a very professional email highlighting our concerns and have clearly stated examples and how we feel. Copy and pasted everyone's feedback into a document as well so that it is just coming from me but it is a collective effort. Another team member had a meeting with her within the hour and so, our message was delivered and hammered in straight to the point. She assured us that she will be doing something about it and appreciate that we are talking to her.

Now the problem..the director got my manager to go see her and well, when she came back she slammed her notepad on her desk and went into the meeting room on her own, closed the door and made a personal phonecall. We knew we are dead after that. I am just wondering if she knows I sent that email and if she knows, my life will be over. So well next step is..if my life is made a living hell after this, at least I know who to go to next to resolve this issue. Guess when i have no reservations of resigning, it gives me that strength to fight this war. At least i'll be seen as a leader for the rest of the team and who knows, it might lead to bigger things. My courage for being able to address issues might be rewarded?

ekk...

what happened to morals?

I have been disgusted by the news that are dominating the headlines this week!

(1) The father of anna nicole smith's baby is the new blonde guy
(2) 2 men charged with kidnapping and plotting to murder a high school boy.
(3) High school students in top melbourne private schools beating up other kids

Well I have to say that I feel sorry for howard stern. His name is on the birth certificate and to be told that the kid you have always thought was yours, isn't really your kid...SUCKS! I reckon for a mother to not even know who the father is of your own baby is sad. There is something really wrong there.

As for those 2 men who kidnapped the high school boy, I wish both of you will burn in hell. How can 2 GROWN MEN rape a BOY and do all those sick stuff to him while he's being held captive for over 20 days? How sick can you get? And to even plot and use acid to dissolve his body? I hope God, Allah, Budhha and whoever out there who can hear me to give this kid strength to carry on with life. The physical scars will go but the emotional scars will be hard to get rid off.

Xavier college boys. All of you are such typical spoilt brats that believe you own the world but can be summarised as plain dickheads! So by throwing this boy in the rubbish bin, wheel him around and kick him makes you king of the world? And by filming this whole episode and distributing it all over myspace, you tube and via mms makes you invincible? At the end of the day, all of you are lonely pathetic dickheads that are empty in the head and have nothing. You are the real losers! It is the studious ones in the bin who got beaten up who will go to uni, study medicine, engineering, law etc etc and earn more than you. And all of you better start praying that you have an inheritance because that is your only hope!

Wonder where all the anger came from but I just feel that people have gone way out of hand. We were never brought up this way and you will never hear of such things 10-20 years ago. Kids these days are so shallow and pathetic and there is nothing behind all that makeup and they are all talk. What happened to all the upbringing and morals that were handed down generations ago?

was looking forward to it but....

I was looking forward to going back to work. Went out for drinks with friends from work yesterday since it was Matt's birthday and realised, I actually have a lot of SHIT to deal with! I went back to grab some stuff from my drawer today, thought I'll check my email and yup. I should be busy running around just dealing with my emails alone on Monday!

Not sure if every other company is the same but I am sick and tired of being the only person who deals with all the complicated SHIT! Someone resigned on Thursday and 2 have gone for interviews. That's how things are. People seem to stay less than 1 year in the company and leave and idoits like me who stayed for has been there for more than 3 years have to deal with all the lack of experience and knowledge, train someone and by the time they even know something, they leave again. And in the meantime, I have to deal with their errors, complains, overflowing backlog and hence, an unhappy workplace. So while others leave, I stay and be rewarded with an unhappy workplace and complains and shit to deal with. Pay sucks as well and I'm underpaid.

Use to tell myself, do i have a choice, yes. I can leave or get transferred. And if i'm not doing that, then well maybe I shouldn't complain. It's just getting so hard to survive. It's mid-apr now..another 9 more months and I'll be packing my bags and leaving for greener pastures. My fav slogan on my computer...HANG IN THERE MATE!!!!

I'm not cut out to be a housewife!

I tried grilling a fish for dinner 2 nights ago..turned the oven on, marinated the fish and 15-20mins later, the fish hasn't even cooked! Changed the oven settings and when the fish is cooked, it tasted disgusting! It tasted so fishy! I did apply salt and all to the fish but ekk.,..maybe the fish would have been better panfry than grilled! grr...made roast for dinner last and that turned out well. We had a feast! Pumpkin soup, pork roast, grilled potatoes, corn kennels..yummy.

I would trade all these just to go to work though. I can't stay at home all day long and it has only been 1 week!

first day as a housewife!

I'm bored..bored bored! Woke up when my fiance went to work today and that was 730am! I lazed in bed a little and by 8am, I was in front of the tv watching MTV! Did a few things, do some dishes, paid some bills, rang my mum and it was only 11am! I didn't know what to do! Took some food out of the freezer to prepare for lunch and well, I was unproductive the whole afternoon. There are things to do such as laundry, wouldn't harm doing some cleaning and tiding up the house but i just played computer games, surf the net, watch tv and that's it! Cooked dinner at 630pm and then back on the couch for more tv again!

Hopefully I'll be more productive tomorrow..... :)

work issues

Well, everyone at work hates my manager and that is a fact. For me, I don't really like the way she deals with things but I can see that she wants to try. She sends out emails telling us that things will improve etc etc but everyone seems to take whatever she says with a pinch of salt. Maybe I'm naive and fall for such tricks but I really just want to stay out of the way and do what I have to do and go home.

I just want my bloody payrise! I am the contact point for the product I deal with and the other guy in my team who is a contact point for another product is getting $1.5K more than me every month!
Payrise, payrise, payrise!

Escapism..

Everyone has lot's of problems and so do I. And i finally found my way of escaping from it all yesterday. I have been sitting on the couch the whole day watching nothing but Grey's anatomy!

Everyone's been going on about great a show it is but I have never taken an interest. I've never even watched a full episode until a fortnight ago! I have work to do, I have more important things to deal with and hence, I never had time for tv. These days, I have tried telling myself to relax..after the chestpains and having to go to emergency department and let doctors run a whole lot of tests, xrays, ecg etc etc. Life's never perfect and it takes a lot from a perfectionist to understand that things are fine not being perfect. I need to stop comparing myself to the best and wish how much more I could have done/achieve. I need to slow down and look at others. That I have done a lot better than others and there are people who would want to be me. People who are envious and wish they can have what I have..things that I take for granted.

So well, my new friend is greys anatomy. The show allows me to sit on the couch for hours without having to focus on anything else. So until I finish all the episodes that I have on hand, my new friend will be keeping me company and keeping me distracted and helping me relax and chill out. Where's my McDreamy and McHottie!!!!

i'm finally on holidays!

It is a long awaited break from work. Had to deal with a very nasty client yesterday and it was ridiculous. He kept coping a director into our emails and so I have to thread carefully. It was an issue that took 4 days to resolve and towards the end, it just seem more like a catfight or blaming game than anything else. If all information was provided at the start, I could have sorted it out on the spot but he gave me half the story, ran around dealing with stuff that I don't deal with (eg taxation etc etc) and then realise that there's more to the story everyday. Some people are just so difficult to deal with!

The director is interstate and from a totally different department. He didn't sound very friendly when he rang me up asking what the hell was going on. It was good to know that he is on my side and he wants me to sort this issue out and after that, he will be telling him to take his money somewhere else! Something you will only see when business is booming eh..we can actually tell our clients to take their millions to another bank!

At the end of the day, I'm glad that the director told me I did a great job and handled a clown very professionally. He asked me what my position is and well, he knows my name and can easily find out which department I work for etc etc. Hopefully all the running around and being abused by a ridiculous client will pay off. Hoping that he will at least email my director telling him what I have done..and a payrise since I'm meant to be promoted this month? :)

everyone's so down...

Everyone at work is very frustrated and unhappy. Looking at the brighter side, everyone still gets along very well but just seems to be a very unproductive and angry group on the whole. Everyone's upset with the manager and company. I've been trying to be the livewire or well, I have to say I am the livewire and made them laugh a few times today and I might bring in some easter eggs on Thursday to cheer everyone up. Gonna be on holiday from Thursday and I have a feeling, I will becoming back to a whole lot of backlog. According to stats, productivity is down 40-50% and at the same time, error rate has gone up!

I guess it is not really my job to motivate everyone at work but I guess I just want to do my best. Well I know what will cheer everyone up, knowing that our manager has resigned! Maybe I should try and achieve that instead :p

i wish i can..but i dont think i should

One of my close friends, emailed me today. If I am interested, I can submit my resume and I reckon I shouldn't have any problems getting the job. Unfortunately, it is in Singapore. Fiance and I are looking at moving to Singapore next year when the job market picks up. Main reason for moving there is more affordable housing, lower cost of living and better job opportunities.

And well, let's just say I can't wait! I feel as though I can finally reach for the stars. There will be more opportunities there in both the stock market and investment sense and career as well. However, I have to wait for my fiance to finish his certificate in some IT stuff before we can go. I know it won't be for long and it gives us time to plan and pack as well. But part of me feels like applying for all these jobs with Citibank, Barclays, HSBC etc etc and just pack my bags and go now! I wish I can..but I can't and I don't think it's fair. Fiance's born and bred in Australia and to him, moving overseas is a huge step. We should do it together and I shouldn't take off on my own and wait for him to join me when he's ready. It's not too long a wait and I know it gives us time to clear up whatever stuff we have here. Sell our furniture, clothing etc etc

So well, i wish i can leave now..but i can't and i shouldn't. Not too long now..HANG IN THERE!!

Why is his family so shallow?

So well, another thing i can complain about my fiance's family. I have to watch my mouth now but once I say 'I do' at the alter, I will bite their head off and will no longer hold back how I feel and what I really want to say!

Fiance got a new job and starts next week. The best part about his job is that he can wear polo shirts and jeans to work! Typical IT department geeks :p However, we bought a whole lot of pants and shirts while we were holidaying in Singapore and hence, we thought we'll give it all to his younger brother since he just got out of uni and started his first job in Jan/Feb. We gave it to him last week and today, he was showing us new pants that he bought! He was telling us that he got the 2nd pair half price and my fiance said, well it's still not as cheap as the ones we got from Singapore! His reply was but they ones you got are from Asia and these are from Roger David! HOW SHALLOW CAN A GUY BE! Those pants that we got were on sale..70% off and were originally $70-100! Well they are not Armani or Zegna but hey are decent pants. Moreover, he is just fresh out of uni and seriously, how many people on the streets of Perth will tell the difference between the brands that you are wearing anyway! Roger David isn't a designer brand and they are the same as any other pants found in Myer so what is the difference between what he bought as to what we bought in Singapore? I can understand what he's saying if I bought it from some night market in Thailand or Vietnam!

It is very upsetting and depressing that another of his sibling turns out this way. All my friends are well-to-do compared to his family and I never had friends who behave like them. As much as I hate to say this, could it be because they never had money in their family and now that they have some, it makes them feel as though they are better than everyone and anyone else?

I'm sick and tired of having such shallow and pathetic people as family. Thank god I picked the best one of the lot!

i'm back...

We exceeded our internet quota and we've been shaped to dialup for the past few days and it was a very traumatising experience. It took me so much longer to do a simple thing and I had so much to say in my blog for the last few days and didn't even get to do it!!! So well..here it goes...

I found out that this manager is dating my director! Ekk....well there's nothing wrong with office romance..this female manager is the typical bitch who's in her 30s, very slutty and bitchy and desperate. Well my problem is, the director is married with 2 kids! I don't blame women who date married men and are unaware that they are married. It's the women who know fully what they are getting themselves into that I despise. He has 2 kids who are in kindergarden. They moved from Scotland to Australia for less than 6mths. His poor wife, trying to get the kids accustomed to a new life/country and if she ever knows that he is sleeping with someone from work, how heartbreaking would that be? And i blame this female manager. Even if he seduce you and went all out, I believe it is the woman's job/position to turn a married man down. Why be the one to break up a family? So what will she get out of this? Wait for him to get a divorce and then realise that after 2-3 years, he is still uncertain if he wants a divorce and then threaten to walk out? I can see her calling his wife telling her all about it and how he likes her so much more!

So well, will be good to see what happens next. I'm hoping that he's dump her and she can walk around the office being the pathetic slut who got dumped. Some people have lots to deal with in their life and it is not fair but women like her, get herself into such problems and she deserve everything that will be heading her way!