Sunday, February 10, 2008

Am I a hypocrite?

Hypocrisy (or being a hypocrite) is the act of pretending to oppose a belief or behaviour while holding the same beliefs or behaviours at the same time.

So basically you're pretending to be something you're not? Well I reckon as of tonight, I have mastered the art of being a hypocrite. I had to go to my fiance's parents place for dinner and they gave us a long speech about many things and even though i have lots to say and in my mind, i had an answer or something nasty to say, i kept quiet and smile and nod my head. And even when they say if there's anything i'm unhappy about or want to discuss with them, let them know. All I did was gave them the sweetest smile i can come up with and said yes i will.

Does that make me a hypocrite? Or am I being diplomatic? Its such a fine line between that isn't it?

Saturday, February 2, 2008

Our wedding...

It's scary..i didn't realise but we've been engaged for close to 2 years. Where did the last 2 years go? It felt as though it flew right pass and I didn't know! Many people wonder why I'm not excited about my wedding and why we're taking so long to organise the wedding. Some have said its not normal to be engaged for so long without planning to have a wedding.

Both of us know, that we are scared. We're are scared of planning the wedding. We're scared of the wedding. If someone will come take away the stress, the fights, the tears that we're going to have and just organise it all and i just have to turn up in my dress, I'll do it even if its within the next hour!

I think we've come to realise that a wedding is not a day to celebrate our marriage. It is a day filled with traditions, religions, cultures, what our families want. When did such a happy day become such a stressful day? What is the meaning behind a wedding? It seems as it is no longer a day about us but a day for people around us. So why should i plan the wedding, they want the party why don't they plan it? Guess life isn't always as simple as that! Maybe I'm skeptical and I wish I am a lot more excited and bursting with ideas...but I'm happy now, we're happy now and well, do we really have to deal with it? I guess I don't have a choice!!!

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Heath Ledger's dead & some dickheads wouldn't leave him alone!

Westboro Baptist Church said Ledger is now in hell, OK! magazine reports.

"Heath Ledger thought it was great fun defying God Almighty and His plain word; to wit; God Hates Fags! & Fag-Enablers!" the church said in a statement.

I'm surprise that these people spoke to God! Did God tell them that he hates fags and even fag enablers? Did the bible teach people to hate and target a certain group of people? Everyone have different views but how about leaving religion out of it? Does that also mean that gays and lesbians can't go to church and believe in Christ even though they are fantastic people? I believe I can name a lot of straight or rather 'normal' people in their terms that are more fearful and nastier than many gays/lesbians who deserve to go to hell!

Heath Ledger is an actor who was doing his job and he perfected the art and did a fantastic job in Brokeback mountain, especially for a straight man. He's dead so can't we just let him leave peacefully and remember the good times? It was such a short life that was taken away so tragically. Is there really a need to bring up such issues when we really should celebrate his life and thank him for all the lives he has touched and the legacy he's living behind?

I hope God forgives these inconsiderate followers' actions. I feel sorry that these people give Christianity a bad name because this isn't what Christianity is all about.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Househunting sucks..but we pulled through!

We've been so busy househunting and i forgot how painful it is! We sold our place and have decided to go back to renting for a bit and maybe buy a block of land and build a new house in 12mths time. So well, we needed to find a roof over our head and since we're not too fuss with where we rent, we had about 10 suburbs to choose from! Just driving ard all the suburbs to check out houses every weekend was very painful and taking the toll on us and the idea of buying instead popped up a few times but we persevered. It's not the right time to buy so we won't be buying!

Finally...we found a very nice place. Rent is within our budget but instead of 3 bedrooms, we had to settle for a 2 bedroom and no remote garage instead. I suppose there's only 2 of us so we really don't need 3 bedrooms and we drive to work 5 days a week so there's no need for a remote garage since the house is at the back of another house as well so there's no security issues there. The most important thing is the landlord seems nice. I know they all seems nice when they're trying to rent to you but they seem like they are very tolerant and very easy going people.

So hopefully, this will be our new home for at least 3-4 years if possible!

Saturday, January 5, 2008

Happy New Year!

I really should blog more..especially when I have so much spare time at work! It's been really quiet and for once, we're like vultures trying to hunt for something to do! I brought my assignments and stuff to read and do but its so easy to get distracted when my colleague is playing poker and everyone else is chatting! Been trying to tell myself that I should enjoy going to work without having to work! But its hard..i like being a busy little bee!!!!

Met someone nasty today...can't believe how nasty people can be sometimes. Women are really bitchy sometimes, even when they are in the wrong! Oh well, i suppose times like this i tell myself that there's karma and they will get what they deserve. I shouldn't have to stoop to their level and if they are nasty, they will suffer in the sense that they will lose their friends, they will be lonely, won't be well liked etc etc. Let the world punish these people for me. I don't have to get my hands dirty! :)

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Looking back and 2008 here I come...

Not too sure why but i'm feeling very positive at the moment. I am not contented with what i have achieved in life and it is definitely way off my target but i truely believe that i'm blessed and i'm doing very well. I'm not a millionaire but that's still on the cards and i'll get there one day and well these are the reasons why i think i should thank god for:

Asupportive family that stands behind me
An absolutely gorgeous fiance that i know i'll be spending the rest of my life with
Fantastic friends who's always there to hear me whinge
Getting the opportunity to work with such fantastic workmates and it just makes life so much easier
It only takes me 5mins in the morn to put on my makeup and i'll look presentable
Having the opportunity and brains to run a business after work
Knowing how to manage my finances
I don't own any nail polish, mascara, eye pencil and eye shadow but i still look good
I don't exercise and don't have the healthiest lifestyle but i'm not fat

So well, in summary, i feel that i should be glad on how i'm travelling in life. It's not the rosiest and easiest path but isn't that what makes life interesting as well? And with 2008 just round the corner, i'm just so filled with energy and courage knowing that it is going to be so much bigger and better and this should be it:

We would have sold our property and be sitting with a fair chunk of cash that we can use for investment (gotta watch that and make the right decisions but well, i suppose invest in good companies and remember that its a long term investment and not let the short term volatility get to me!

We have a rough idea of where we'll be renting and what we will be renting so I cant wait to move all of mum and dad's furniture out of storage and have a place of our own. We won't be sharing with anyone so it'll be our own place..not a house but home. I know its just a rental property but well, with the property market stagnant or going down, we're better of renting anyway. Plus we don't know how long we'll be staying here for as we're looking to moving interstate or to another country so we'll see. Buying or owning a property is definitely not part of our plan.

Business will be getting bigger and better! I've got expansion plans all ready to roll and i know i'll succeed. Things have been fantastic over the last 2-3 months and i might be able to go part time at work so i won't be as tired and i'll have more time to expand the business. I can't wait! So many plans, so many dreams that needs to be executed!!

I'll finish my studies soon and will finally be able to get my license to give financial advice legally. Not too sure if i want to do that as if i have a choice in life, it'll still be going full time into my business but we'll see.

So thank you for a fantastic 2007 and 2008, here i come filled with dreams and hopes!!!

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Elizabeth: The golden age

watched elizabeth: the golden age last night. I have to say it isn't as bad as what I heard and I actually quite enjoy it.

I was dreading going to the movies last night. I have so much to do at home. I need to clean the house, pack all my stock, deal with my business and on top of that, I actually have a full time job! So life's been a juggling act and with christmas round the corner, it's even worst! So well, we had these free tickets and thought we might as well go watch a movie. I was tired, lots on my mind, lack of sleep and some days i feel as though i have to allocate time for my fiance as well so that i'm not neglecting him. And it felt like that last night. So well, wasn't too excited about going to the movies, didn't hear many good reviews about elizabeth and i suppose i went in all negative. However, i walked out a totally different woman. I feel the power, i feel the confidence and i feel that it gave me strength to put up with everything that's happening in my crazy world. And that life after all that isn't really all that bad.